questions left unanswered: what?

what are we really?

we started off really well

you would look at me with those loving eyes

you would text me good morning or good night

you treated me differently than the other guys around you

so what happened?

you say you still like me

but you don’t act like it

we’ve been talking for months now

but you haven’t made things clear on what’s going on between us

don’t you think i deserve clarity on things?

i’m so tired of the mixed signals you keep giving me

a traffic light constantly changing between stop and go

the moment i get used to your presence, you leave me

the moment i pull away, you push again

am i overthinking things?

maybe, but can you really blame me?

when all you’ve given me are questions still left unanswered

i’m not trying to rush you into things

but i’m just scared to get hurt again.

to be left behind again.

so let me ask,

who am i to you?

a friend? maybe a special friend?

someone you turn to when you’re sad, then leave when you’re okay?

all the things we did

all the memories we shared

what was it all really to you?

did it mean anything to you?

because to me, those moments meant something

no, they meant everything to me.

i always replays moments of us before i go to sleep

i lay in bed, giggling like a kid after a date night

but every morning i wake up with this uneasy feeling

that this special moment for me

is all just normal to you

right?

you say you enjoy the time we spend together

but why do i feel like you’re just hiding me in a crowd full of strangers?

you never show me affection when we’re with friends

do you only like me when we’re alone?

every time your family ask what’s going on between us

you always answer with the same word.

friends.

is that all that i’ll ever be to you?

then why did you make it seem that we had something special?

that i was special?

but i guess it was wrong of me to assume that i was special

there were no deals, no promises, no labels, nothing.

we had each other and i thought that was enough