when did things go wrong?
when did you stop loving me?
you keep saying that maybe i’m just overthinking things
but i can see through your lies
is it the way i greet you good morning everyday?
is it the way i keep wanting to spend time with you?
or was it the time i asked you if we were okay?
was i too clingy?
did i ask for too much?
did i love you too much?
so when did you feel like you don’t love me anymore?
it’s a hard question to answer, i know
but i just want to know the exact moment you lost your love for me.
was it the night i showed vulnerability for the first time?
when I cried my heart out, and you just looked at me with pitiful eyes?
I remember thinking to myself,
when did the way you look at me change?
you used to look at me like I was your world, your safe space
when did i become something that you wanted to leave behind?
something that bothered you?
something… disposable to you?
when did the love you had for me disappear?
because my love for you did not.
it didn’t disappear when you no longer replied that you love me too.
it didn’t disappear when you no longer showed me affection.
it didn’t disappear when you grew cold.
it didn’t disappear when you left.
so i’m just stuck here, left with the fragments of a broken heart
left trying to sew the pieces back together.
trying to find the reason why it broke.
trying to find when things went wrong.
because i did my best to keep you happy.
i settled for the little scraps of affection that you gave me.
i stayed even if everyone else was telling me to leave you.
because i thought that maybe, this will pass.
that maybe, if i endure the pain, it will all get better.
that maybe, the version of you that loved me will come back.
so i held on, even when you were letting go.
i fought for us, even when you surrendered.
even when your heart and mind already left me alone in the fight.
and now i’m left here, with a question that has no answer.
a call for help with nobody there to respond.
so if you’re reading this, i’m going to ask one last time.
when did you stop loving me?
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