"Out Of Goodbyes" | Mina x M / F Reader

7AM in the morning and you just woke up in your bed from the alarm you set hours ago before sleeping.

You slammed the clock shut, stopping it from continuing to rang annoyingly before you rubbed your eyes to clear his vision for him to properly see as another day comes for him to start.

Flopped back into the soft mattress of your bed, you huffed in the air before facing aside to the blank space with you where once, a certain somebody that was very special to you occupies this.

As if your reflexes are still used to it, your body can't help but to react strangely when your skin gets contact in the surface; shivers and heat cursing all over just like what you've always felt whenever she's embracing you at any activities you do with her in this particular bed of yours.

You frowned, a sigh escaped in your mouth as you gave the vacant area a gentle caress before you slowly stood up from the bed.

Bringing the phone with you onto the kitchen, you prepared the ingredients you need for a quick breakfast that you're about to make.

Part of freshening yourself up, you brushed your teeth and washed your face first before returning back to the kitchen and start cooking.

As you were about to began performing the first step, your phone beeped with a notification.

Phone litted bright, you peeked at it and saw the time and the date itself displayed first along with your newly replaced wallpaper consisting of just your own picture.

Out of these three, the date reminded you something that even made you sadder if you'll be looking forward for this whole day.

March 24

It was her birthday... and your anniversary with her.

With your ex-girlfriend.

With Mina.

What you did with the wallpaper won't fool you also, as the location and the person who took that for you was none other than her too.

She was the person you were with on that day, and always has been.

She was even included on your previous one, but what happened between you and her just hurts so much you couldn't even stand seeing her very close to you unlike how you loved it when you and her were once together.

And through that, the memory flashed within your mind which clenched your chest and breaths gone heavy.

FLASHBACK

Tell me actions
Speak louder
But there's something about her words, that hurts.

In the middle of the night as you are currently driving on your way home with Mina, you decided to break the unsettling silence wrapping the two of you inside the car, especially that both of you are holding unpleasant mood towards each other that neither of you can't tell enough what's behind it.

"What happened to you again this time?" You asked her, eyes fixated on the road illuminated from the headlights of your car as you kept on driving carefully.

Mina remained unmoved in her seat, head still leaned at the window as she stared outside to watched the bypassed surroundings of the street you're crossing ahead. "None of your business. Just take me home, please."

You weren't surprised with her attitude shift at you. Here she comes again with her words that speaks louder more than her actions can tell which only results for you to feel something about these words she says to you that ends up hurtful to you. "A-are you sure? You know what I mean, I j-"

"What words can't you understand from what I said, YN? I don't have time for this, okay?"

"Can you blame me for being like this to you?" You said to her, glancing at her. "I just wanted to know, Mina."

"Does it even matter to you?"

"Ofcourse it does!" You raised your voice higher, giving a hint at how your patience is being tested again by her unlikeable behavior. "What kind of a stupid question is that anyway? I'm your boyfriend/girlfriend, don't I have a right to take care of you?"

"Well, I kinda figured it out because I thought I'll just end up getting scolded again and you will be the one who's right here as usual."

"Huh? W-what are you talking about? Is that what you really think of me treating you?"

"Keep driving, YN. I just want to rest now." She ignored your plead of clarification.

"F-fine. I won't force you if that's what you want."

Closing up and it's too late and I'm the last one
Still waiting for you to lock the door

This gap of you finally giving up is inches wide remaining.

You listened to her and returned your focus back on the road as you left her still silent, probably clouded with her own problems.

It makes you worry, of course; but the walls she's building again is preventing you from coming closer and offer assistance to her and you just don't know why she's being like this to you.

What's even worse is that, this ain't the first she's ever done this to you. This occurs every time that you and her are having problems in the midst of your third renewal of relationship with her after those previous breakups you had with her which was caused with different reasons.

She was freely sharing it to you once until days come by when she turns out keeping it secret to you instead and now here she is again, deciding to cope it by herself while leaving you here still concerned about her and you are done with it.

You can't allow this to continue... which is same as what you can say for your relationship with her.

Your wondering and processing reached the breaking point where it now made you realize that this won't lead anywhere at all. This isn't worth it for another chances, opportunities or mercy.

You are now done. You shut the door of each other's home and now you're the only one waiting for her to finally lock it and never be opened again.

Although to be honest, this is the hardest decision you've ever done in your life but there's no turning back now. You ended up here and it's no going back now, especially that you know to yourself that you can't do it anymore.

On our way home I realize
There's some kind of storm brewing in his /her eyes
Only veiled by a thin disguise

You finally reached your place with her. Parking the car slowly in front of the house, she exited quickly without even needing your help to open the door for her like you usually do and what you were about to do also.

She was already in the front door as you followed her from behind. Mina turned her body to face you as she's about to lend you a way for you to insert the key to the doorknob.

There it is, Mina perceived it clearly indeed as she stared at your eyes as you turned at her with a small smile before you faced her with your side profile.

Little did you know that while Mina chose to became quiet after your almost altercation with her, she saw something right through you that tugged her heart and fill guilt inside of her.

She can't tell specifically, but she knows there's something beneath your eyes that informs her that something is wrong about you, only to be hidden barely behind your mask pretending that you are fine in front of her.