November 18, 1995
Dear Kim Dahyun, 27 years old, from Gyeonggi-do, (Sorry, it’s really fun to write)
The compliments shouldn’t just come from me. A lot of people should praise you for a lot of different reasons. And quite frankly, I can give several reasons. Don’t dare me, I’d love to indulge in this.
Reading what you said about what your doorman tells you has to be the best thing I’ve heard this year. Do you really feel that way for me? And just because of my simple letters? Well, then maybe I should call myself crazy if I didn’t tell you I feel the exact same way. The people in my building always tease me. Even Momo said that there’s a glint in my eyes whenever I receive your letters. And I’m not going to deny it either. I love receiving your letters. And now that I know you feel the same way, I guess that makes it extra special then? :)
It seems to me that Chaeyoung and Mina are meant to be together. Also, I feel like if Chaeyoung and I studied in the same school, we would have been friends. Maybe because from my first impression when I first saw her at the bakery and the way you talk about her, I think we would get along. Chaeyoung sounds like she’s head over heels for Mina, meaning she must be a catch. And it’s nice that they’re moving in. I really hope good things happen to them now that they’re taking a big step in their relationship.
My leg is fine, by the way. No surgery or anything, just had a cast on for months until I was okay to walk again. It wasn’t fun being the center of attention, but I think I got used to it. Some were coddling me, some made fun of me because kids will always be like that. When I got into college, I met Momo, and she introduced me to dance therapy and I was myself again. I owe a lot of my confidence to Momo actually. I wouldn’t be the woman I am right now if it weren’t for her.
I wasn’t expecting you to share something really deep. But thank you for trusting me with this. I think that alone should be proof that you can feel something for someone. And I think whoever receives precious feelings from you or maybe even love should be the luckiest person ever. You have a lot of raw and genuine feelings, and it has to be taken care of just like how you take care of the people who are dear to you. If that were me… then I’d do anything to make sure that you feel the same amount of affection because you deserve it. I’d give you so much, you wouldn’t even know what to do with it. But does Tzuyu know about it? Or is this like a secret you kept with very few people? If anything, your secret is safe with me. No one will know.
What’s it like to fall in love? I feel like that’s the easiest and the most difficult thing to answer. Because sometimes I wish I knew why I let anyone receive my love when I don’t even know I’m being loved in return as well.
But… falling in love just happens. Sometimes it hits you in a moment where you don’t expect it to happen. It just does. Kind of like how you suddenly woke up and realized that you like Tzuyu. For me, it’s like a question has been answered. A question that I didn’t even know I was asking, and when I see the person, everything just makes sense. But people have different ways to fall in love. It’s unique and unpredictable. That’s why it’s such a strong and powerful emotion.
Sometimes I just imagine myself sitting on a swing set, in a park somewhere in the city, waiting for something to happen and then suddenly, someone comes up to me and asks if they want to sit down on the swing next to mine. We would just do nothing but enjoy the silence we share, and I'll feel something with their presence alone and then… I'll feel it. I don’t know if that makes sense. Then again, when did falling in love ever make sense? Sometimes it doesn’t. I just know that’s what I want to happen to me the next time I fall in love again. I hope that the next time I do, it will be final, it will be mutual, and it will be stronger than before. A feeling that would make me brave again, where I can love myself as much as I love that person as well.
Maybe I’m waiting for the right person too.
I hope this isn’t too bold, but I want to say it. But would you like to find out together?
Yours,
Nayeon
She honestly believed that she was going insane.
Her chest felt like it was going to explode because of how intense her heart was beating.
Would you like to find out together?
What did she mean by that?
Dahyun couldn’t control herself, not knowing that she was clutching onto her shirt so tightly that she feared that everything inside was going to flood, and she was going to drown.
Did that mean something?
That has to mean something.
Right?
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