The Tenth Letter From Nayeon

July 12, 1995

Dear Dahyun,

I guess that’s another thing we can say that we have in common. At least people can depend on us with their children right? Your baby cousin sounds really cute. I do wonder if she and Jimin will meet one day. Who knows. The world is mysterious.

The saying could be placed in the same aspect. Anything simple could be beautiful. A color, a flower, maybe even simple words. Maybe even letters that you write. You don’t have to use stationary; you could use a simple piece of paper and write anything on it and it’ll still look pretty to me and I’ll keep it safe. I guess it’s like that, don’t you agree?

Also, I am no poet. I don’t possess any profound words. I do wish I could be one. It’s amusing, and I would love to speak and write with flowery words. Maybe then people would take me seriously. 

You really have a lot of calendars, and I think that’s adorable. I didn’t know you got a cellphone as well. How is it? I would have sent you a message but it’s expensive to send an SMS. It’s crazy. Why would anyone bother if it’s just going to cost this much?

This is a very interesting thing you shared with me. I wonder if that’s the same as people who don’t understand the situation when someone is flirting with them. I have a friend who’s very nice to everyone, but it gets misinterpreted all the time. Which suddenly made these men angry because they thought she ‘wanted’ them, until everyone else around her just got angry because they think she’s a floozy. It’s crazy. I’ll never understand that. But has that happened to you? Is that how you feel?

So what does a person need to do to be rewarded with your heart, Dahyun? 

I’m curious. 

Maybe you’re the one who’s a poet. Your words have a strange effect on me. But maybe you are right. He made me feel like I didn’t have to look for anyone anymore and I thought I could be myself when I’m with him. But now, when I look back into it, I tend to think if he just set me up to be the biggest fool ever. But I guess I’m glad he’s gone. I don’t want to go through that all over again. My trust and my heart deserves to heal. Right? 

Anyway, maybe we can leave that topic for another time. If that’s okay. 

I do like talking about Bruce though. 

My friend has visited, and she goes with me to the vet whenever he needs to. But that has been scarce, and I’ve been busy with work. Plus, when she moved to a different house, she got a new dog. But she still shows her care for Brucie. He’s doing great, kind of blind and deaf, but that’s because he’s really old. My friend doesn’t remember when his birthday is, but I know that he’s about 15 years already. It’s a miracle that he made it this long. 

He’s very friendly too. Maybe because he’s a mixed breed. Beagle and dachshund, that’s what my friend said. To be honest, he could be any kind of breed, and I’d think he’s still amazing. He likes to pee a lot whenever we go out, sniffs anything, but at least he’s not the type to bite everything and doesn’t destroy my shoes. 

But he’s okay. He just has issues, but the vet prescribed us medicine and we're going to try to walk a little more. It could be good for me as well. He’s been my rock since the breakup. I don’t know what I’ll do if something happens to him. I want him to live forever.

My letters have been a little more than usual as well. I have a lot to tell you too. I just hope that the envelope can keep everything in. 

But you guys sound so adorable! I can imagine three small girls running around and playing at a playground or something. And it’s so nice to know that you guys still keep in touch. So Chaeyoung is back in Seoul?

Momo and I met at work. We were still pretty young when we did, but we clicked after a while, and she hasn’t bothered leaving my side even if we’ve progressed at work. She’s the best person I’ve met really. I have a group of friends, but she’s the one that really does the extra mile whenever I’m feeling down. Maybe because she knows I’d do the same for her as well. 

Aren’t friends amazing? I think you’re amazing. 

I can’t wait for the day that we can finally meet. Maybe you can come over and meet Bruce and Momo and we can have dinner or something. That would be fun. I would like to meet Tzuyu and Chaeyoung too. They sound great to be around. 

Anyway, thank you again Dahyun.

You’re amazing.

Yours sincerely,

Nayeon