Outta My Mind

Along came Friday, which went about as dull as any other day of the week. Chaehyun and I woke up from our dorms, got on the metro to the university, sat in on the lectures, and followed through with the day. I tried my best not to overthink last week, though she threw hints about it here and there and made her seem oddly excited about today. But our conversations didn’t become lewd so fast, while not forgetful of the agreement. She reminded me as she sat beside me during the second period. I just kept telling myself it was just another dinner.

“Let’s try and make it at this one bulgogi place at like, six?” she suggested, “So we can get on the rooftop."

"Sounds expensive,” I replied, nodding, “but sounds like a plan."

She made it clear that we aren’t calling it a date, though I’ve had to accompany her to the mall before, got lost at the noraebang, and went home far later than planned. I could only snicker to myself while passing by the hallway on the way to my final class and left just before 4 pm, dropping my bag beside my bed and then crashing for a quick nap, getting on my feet a while later, shutting the alarm and opening a message from Chaehyun.

[ Wait, lights on later, right? ]

[ Yeah? ]

I typed, then checked my wallet for a condom this time.

Chaehyun just left me on seen. I didn’t think of it too much, except that she probably got in the shower. So I did. A message ping interrupted me as I washed my hair, and the vibe of the whole affair blurred between an actual dinner date and a paid-for dinner to sweeten up the deal of sex. Though in the spirit of a joke, carrot or stick had gone for too long, with just a little too much carrot. Already starting to daydream about fucking her like an AV star as I shaved what little facial hair I had. But I was no actor. Seeing that the ping earlier was her replying to me.

[ Go easy on me, okay? ]

I didn’t choose to reply, but I knew I had to. I needed to, yet I couldn’t make something up. I felt just as tense as Chaehyun. Making myself more of a nervous wreck might make me chicken out first, trying to snuff the awkwardness I thought with an otherwise familiar person. In my attempts to do so, I redid the bedsheets out of sheer haste, not wanting to leave a wrong impression when we got back.

She looked pale when talking like we’d only met if it was any comfort to me. I just liked to believe she wasn’t when I’d meet her.

Walking outside in summer, I didn’t need a light jacket or anything to wrap myself with; I found a thick shirt enough for the weather. Strolling down the few blocks and having had that gut feeling since I woke up, I decided to make a short detour around a park bench, sitting down and sighing, trying to take it all in still. The only thing that ran through my mind during those five minutes was a single phrase; we already came close last week, we agreed to today, yet now that we’re here, now what?

I had no time to answer that as Chaehyun messaged me. She was just about there. So I got back on my feet, finding her just about to get in line, which was still short at the hour. Exchanging comments with one another, the topic quickly departed from ourselves to the menu as soon as a server handed one to us. Upon seeing it, I became more worried about calling home for bankruptcy.

She just flashed two coupons that signaled relief for me—cutting the bill in half for us. Being told to go to the roof, It was immediate to me that this place was more upper-class, where students like us, as poor as we were, couldn’t just dine alone.

"This looks so expensive,” I whispered to her as we climbed the stairs.

“It is,” Chaehyun smiled proudly, “it’s just a favor."

I just shrugged my shoulders as I opened the door to the top level. As we got a table beside the balcony railing, we were greeted with a picturesque sight. As if she couldn’t be any more spontaneous.

Waiting for the food, it was just the usual back and forth between two young adults who were halfway there and, except for a bit of skill and luck, completely average. Nobody that anybody hasn’t seen before. But the pacification brought about by some meat is a welcome reprise. Perhaps a single serving of light alcohol also helped ease everything down. It was better to have some sobriety for tonight.

But, it took our attention away from at least a few things, which at the moment seemed petty, despite the weight they had on us.

It only took a few passing couples to have us remember what she had me for tonight. And once we had shut down the grill between us and had the empty bowls and plates taken away, she asked.

"So, after this,” she said, “we’re going to your place, right?”

“You still wanna do it?” I asked. Though now, it might’ve sounded grating to her. Whether she was still committed or not, I wasn’t going to stop her.

Chaehyun sighed, crossed her arms on the table, and slightly leaned forward. She had a blank expression that rendered her opaque. Staring me down to show he wasn’t joking, not as much as I, so I took a sip before I also put my arms on the table.

“Did you think I’d ask any other guy?” she paused, “out on a date?"

"Maybe?” I shrugged. I was slightly confused about whether it was about dinner or sex.

She giggled.

“No,” she said, “I never thought about it.”

Sighing to herself, Chaehyun looked out but abruptly continued before I slipped my tongue.

“I mean, it only seemed like a matter of time, right?"

Agreeing to her, this would be quite the ride, whether it was a tandem or a backseater. It might even be a rollercoaster. It was a hard pill to swallow, as predictable as it should’ve been. Then again, she didn’t give me room to think. I was probably just displaying my best poker face and went along with whatever story she threw out, nodding and replying as we bided our time.

And once I had slipped the card and got it back. It was time for us to go, and we left the restaurant shortly after. Chaehyun linked her arms with me as we slowly traced my steps back to my place, with a convenience store stop for snacks on the way, in the form of three bags of chips and a bit of light alcohol to ease us through the night. Like us, the night was also young, but we were going opposite from downtown and into a closed-door affair.

Getting back to my dorm, we were already feeling scandalous, her finding it harder to keep her eyes on me when we shared a glance. Even the order from me to make herself comfortable in the same bed she had crashed in countless times before needed some effort to spit out of me. It did not help that she crossed her legs as she sat across from me while I opened the fridge, biting my lip away from her view as I grabbed the ice.

But while I have done this whole drill, something just felt off. I tried to brush it off as I threw a few ice cubes into our glasses and poured our drinks.

Facing her with glasses in hand, Chaehyun called me as she got hers. As she sat next to me, noticing the cursory glances on my drink and phone, she asked pretty awkwardly.

"Something wrong?"

I shook my head while taking quite a large gulp from my glass. Seeing just right through me, chuckling as she took a sip herself, moving to and practically grazing beside me, and with how awkward the situation was. Taking the initiative, she tried to break the ice.

"It’s been a while for you, huh?” Chaehyun softly said as she leaned into me.

Feeling a cold palm on my thigh as she talked to me. She loosened herself up as she took a few big swigs, playing my cards on me as she slowly rubbed it. After gulping away, she put her glass down and smacked her lips as she crept closer.

“Since it’s my first time, we can do it a few times more, right?"

"As long as you want to,” I replied.

A few seconds of hesitation. Glancing at my lips, then back up at me, I perched forward to meet hers. It was no more than a light kiss, but I wondered why it left Chaehyun speechless. But when her hand left my thigh and came up my neck to reciprocate my kiss, I knew she was eager. And after that, she had her arms on my shoulder and my hands running up her thigh.

“So, let’s go?” Chaehyun said with a sneer.

“You just had to ask.”

Giving her permission, we continued to make out. Throwing her leg on the couch, and with that opening, my hand slipped in between her legs and her skirt. I felt her breath shake when her lips broke as I lightly rubbed on her thighs, slowly trying to get her on me. Her hands were all over me. Mine was under all that, hiking up her shirt and squeezing her tits.

We were in that state for a while until she started playing with her tongue, and her pale, milky skin began to feel softer.

“I think it’s better if you get on top of me,” I sneaked in.

Without a word, and not longer than a few seconds, I was between Chaehyun’s legs. She put her hips down and beckoned me to sit up, yet trying to take me down didn’t work. I was pushing back with my lips to signal disagreement. Asking her if I could take her shirt off, letting me do so as I tugged and pulled it up from its tuck and over her shoulder, taking it off her with a flurry of hair that she slid back.

While she did that, I laid my lips on her neck, lightly sucking on her neck to test her reaction. So when she pushed herself forward, I just kept on it. Listening to her hum as we embraced, my kisses moved down from her neck to her collarbone, giving the top of her tits a few passes as I tried to figure her bra out. Getting it off after trying to unhook it a few times was a bit of comedy at my expense.

Putting her hand on my chest, she had me lie down and watch her ease her shoulders out of her bra straps. She was only holding it up with her forearm, highlighting her cleavage further as it dangled. At the same time, she was showing some skill as she continued to make out and lifted my shirt with the other hand.

“Don’t you want to get on there?” Chaehyun asked as I threw it off me, pointing at the bed.

“And aren’t you gonna take that off?” I asked.

“Carry me there first,” she replied with a chuckle. And her wish was my command.

Sitting up and moving my hands under her knees, she pressed her torso against me, ensuring her bra didn’t slip out on the walk. Giving me a passing look as I slowly began to move and stood up, my arms taking all her weight on her thighs and ass. Though reality caught us quickly, it was hard to move the few steps as Chaehyun held on to me.

Already barely keeping her up, it was a relief that I could put her down gently. Both of us sideways on the bed. Taking me off her embrace to see that I was panting, granting me my prize as she threw her bra aside, taking the cue as I dove in, puckering my lips around her tit and drawing a circle around her nipple with my tongue. On the second circle, I felt her chest rise as she breathed and whined with a flick of her nipple as I tucked into it. So I went on and on, left and right, slipping my hand back into her skirt and tracing my fingers where her pussy was.

“You…want…to…finger me?” she managed to stammer. Thinking it’d send a message, and I pressed my fingers further against the fabric.

But Chaehyun was distracted or feeling herself up as she never replied, moaning through a lip bite and shifting under me. Finding it increasingly harder to keep myself under control as I kneaded, sucked, licked, and prodded. If this is what she wanted, I was just giving it the only way I knew how, and with how she moaned and whined.

It was paying off, and it did not take long before she was almost begging for me to put something inside her.

Knowing that going through all the effort of taking her panties off wasn’t worth our time. I did the next best thing and moved her panties aside. Teasing with a single finger running up and down her folds before slowly pushing it in. A hum rose from her to a sigh that, after a gasp, turned into a squeal, her back arching as the intrusive digit made its way inside her.

I was holding out for a bit and timing it to a suckle before I started to move my finger. Folding my finger upwards, Chaehyun let out a loud howl, stopping for her before she whispered at me to keep going. So when I did, she shifted at every touch inside her, legs sliding on the sheets and threatening to squeeze my wrist, face trying to catch up with her brain as her entire body was under my control.

Thinking anytime now, I might as well have just stood up and gotten lube. Or a neighbor would come knocking and blow the whole thing up.

But I wasn’t sure whether I had missed out or struck gold when I felt her folds becoming wet. Not wanting to grow tired of her tits, I moved back up to her neck. Having let out all her chills as she was now just humming, more in control of herself, though the restless shaking could do some work.

Hearing her whispers switch from near-orgasmic rambles to orders that told me just to go faster, coupled with her entire body starting to shrivel up. Her pussy had become a tight sleeve, and her hips jerked up when I slid inside and dropped down when I pulled back.

Like a long-winded interrogation, I thought now was the time for words, though the method was anything but bloody. Whatever Chaehyun could assemble, I’d take for an answer.

“You’re close?” I asked.

She just nodded, her eyebrows furrowing as she tried to reply, biting her lip and squealing as she threw her head on the mattress while jamming my fingers deep. I felt my lips curl up into a wicked smile. Yet, despite the ego-ridden visage while listening to a woman losing it on my bed. I was at the same point as she was—sensitive—but I wasn’t being touched.

Moving her hand from my back to my neck, she pulled me towards her. Our eyes shut as we let lust do the rest while her tongue frantically looked for mine, giving it as she wanted. Distracted, I started to slow my wrist down, but not before her hand flew in to push it in, whispering.

“Don’t stop.”

The grip on her fingers, wherever they were at that moment, told me that her orgasm was just knocking—hearing her chorus rising even when she used me to shut herself up—yet whatever shame or pretense of calling it a sexual favor withered away. Both of us became careless, her lips glued to mine while my finger squeezed by her walls.

Freezing up, legs closing in as her walls choked my finger, hers bearing down on my neck as Chaehyun arched her back beside me. It wasn’t so much a tickle or a punch from within; she reacted all the same. Squealing and shaking as I felt the heat from my fingertips. Chest rising, gasping for air, her hips ebbing as she rode her orgasm out, fingers catching a hint of fluid that leaked out of her, a thunderous orgasm that came as fast as it left, feeling like she was falling out of space as she slowed her onslaught down, opening her legs and letting me go, lying down next to me as a huffing putty of flesh and bone.

When she caught up, she just glanced at me, her face becoming red as she covered her face. Turning and spooning me, her leg right across mine. Her thigh was right over my boner.

“I wasn’t too loud, wasn’t I?”

“Not really.”

“I won’t be a problem then.”

In a snap, I found Chaehyun on top of me. Not interfering with her as she undid my pants, grabbing my boxers along with them and pulling them right from under her. Looking at me with a smirk as my cock sprung up, already hard. Feeling the air change as she threw my clothes beside a bed before mounting me again. It was her show now. Taking my cock in her hands, she slowly stroked it and asked, instead, taunted me.

“Already got hard listening?"

I had no defense. And it wasn’t like Chaehyun was trying to play demure with me either. I wasn’t the one who orgasmed like it was out of a French film.

"Made it easy for me,” I replied.

Moving right on top of my cock, she was careful not to press it against her lips. Not yet. An air of confidence at a glance, yet with some looks of tepid nervousness. It took us a week to get to this moment. She straightened herself as she unzipped her skirt and hovered back over me, seeing my cock right up against her folds and feeling the warmth dripping on it.

There was no time for quips now. And being a push away, I was glad Chaehyun didn’t do it in the staircase. Glancing down to see that I was raw, she knew it too, but I was too late. She made up her mind with a huff, slipped her fingers into the gap, and pushed it up.

Rising again, she pressed my cock between her folds, feeling the tip disappear into her, stopping to hiss at the sudden intrusion, moving a bit while easing on me. She shuddered only a second before breaking the silence as she let gravity do the work, moaning loudly as my cock parted her walls. The first to do so, and yet, was barely halfway in.

Trying to fight the pain she was feeling or the morbid pleasure that came along with it. Putting her hands behind her back as her breathing became ragged. Mouthing out a cuss or two before she pushed further down without thinking twice, jamming it in, throwing her head back with a wince of pain.

We were speechless, with a feeling of trepidation emanating from us; furrowed eyebrows, shaky breaths, warm bodies. Chaehyun hissed, bit her lip, and started to move. Felt my hips buckle and jerk forward, meeting hers, and began to drown myself with her.

Laying my hands on my belly as I tried to get used to being inside a woman for the second time, the sight of a face crossing pain and pleasure as she rode me, her thick thighs a soft buffer to the motion. The warm choking made my thoughts stutter, then completely scrambled them as she slowly bounced.

“You okay?” I asked.

Chaehyun nodded. And without warning, she shoved herself down and throttled her pace up. Her orgasmic fugue quickly overtook my low grunts. Shrill tones came from her vocal cords—the same one she’s blown noraebangs to pieces with—to the beat of my cock hitting right up that spot.

Slack-jawed, she closed her eyes as her pussy clenched down on me. Feeling my grip freeze up now and then as she took it all in. Even I thought it was voyeuristic to watch her bouncing like this. And not being any less the first-timer she was, I thought the racing hormones would’ve struck that fuse already. Maybe with the aid of ethanol in our bloodstream, it seemed like I had a chance to take it just a little further the first time.

“Fuck,” she stuttered as she slowed down, “You feel so good."

I only barely managed to acknowledge her before she leaned forward. Changing the way her hips moved to grind on me made her almost cry out from the sudden rush. Pushing her weight down on me, slowing further down as she sheathed herself around my cock, prodding herself using me. At times gyrating, grinding, then bouncing again. My toes curled as I resigned myself to an early fate I thought I could evade.

Having propped myself up on the arm, I had a beautiful view of her. Far better than earlier, though now she was also watching me as she had her way slamming onto me.

"You like that?” Chaehyun asked.

“I-I think I do,” I replied unsurely. A confident smirk just told me that she knew I was lying.

I couldn’t talk any further as she kept hoarding me and the airwaves in the room. Leaving any ability of cohesion to my cock as she felt herself up, with her eyes shut again as she tried to speed herself up, only to wince, struck by a contraction from her or a twitch from my cock, which made me mirror her. She got the hang of it all soon enough. We were both in that limbo for a while, a writhing mass of hot youngbloods in bed—except it was Chaehyun—then it was Paradiso.

Telling me to sit up, she had her eyes on my lips and smacked right into them when I was halfway up. Her arms came around me into an embrace, and I found my lips on her neck as I listened to her, moaning through our liplock as we made out while her hips rolled.

“Where’d you learn to ride, though?” I managed to ask.

“Porn,” she confessed, “I’m not doing bad, am I?”

What an understatement.

“Psh! You’re doing great,” I replied.

A faint blush came from her cheeks as she smiled at the compliment. She was sloppy, clearly inexperienced, sure, but hell, we’re enjoying ourselves. Grabbing her ass and waist as we felt hornier now, she pushed her lips back on me and took every inch up to the hilt. Her rolling hips were doing short, indecisive, needy hops that left her thighs chafing against mine.

Taking my chances, I pulled her knees up, leaving her in a squat. It left me deep in her. Throwing her head back with a groan as I cradled her ass, slowly easing her into it. It wasn’t long before the sound of skin slapping was starting to be heard. It was forcing her to slow down as she felt too tight for me to last any longer, giving me a clear view of her shallow bounces as she threw her head back and said.

“I never thought it was this good,” Chaehyun trailed off.

“Me too,” I replied, “So just take it easy.”

Yet even I couldn’t lie to myself for so long, while it left me spearing into her, she was the one squatting on me. Even with the comfort of a bed, the position was more uncomfortable than I thought it would be. It was perhaps owing to a lack of experience. So, I had just the switch in mind.

“You wanna do it from behind?"

"Huh?” Chaehyun asked with a clear panting from her voice.

I repeated myself.

“Sure,” she replied weakly.

Slowly getting off me and rolling to the side, I finally saw my cock again. It was moist from top to bottom, having been dipped and pleasured in Chaehyun’s tightness. It seemed to have found a home in her, a desire coming to me to get back inside her. In contrast, she looked tired but satisfied. She just had no words to say it when she looked at me.

I’ve probably thought of it before but having Chaehyun lying naked was, for this age, aesthetic perfection. Thinking of a way to not tire her further, I asked.

“You seem tired, wanna lie down, or-”

“Nope,” she cut me off before she moved. Ending up kneeling on the bed, tilting her head and saying, “Plus, I don’t think we’re lasting any longer, aren’t we?”

I shook my head. I knew she probably had taken notes when she had me in her mouth. Though agreed as I got behind and propped her up, though not before she moved her hair aside and pulled me in for a kiss while I rubbed my cock on her folds.

“You know me too well already,” I replied.

“I think I just keep surprising you."

I didn’t reply and instead pushed back in. Chaehyun moaned as she felt me penetrating, backing her ass up, and hitting my groin. I was deep, and as I kissed her shoulders, starting to move with short thrusts that slowly pulled further back and made her louder.

Moving away, groaning as I fucked her deep, watching her ass bounce and slam back toward me. A hypnotizing inertial play. And without my arms trying to hold her up, she slowly sank further down onto the bed, having become bent over—face down, ass up—having already worn herself out.

She knew, of course, that she was becoming tighter by the minute. Feeling her squeezing and shifting, her back arched down, her arms stretched out, while she squeaked and squealed. I was feeling my loins stir, so I had a choice to satisfy myself first, or try and hold out, or the last one, a gamble, and make us cum together.

Slowing down, I stopped, bent over, and told Chaehyun to get up, coming to the same position I had entered her in, and with her legs open, I snuck a hand between them and held her by a forearm as her palm pressed onto my thighs.

"Wait."

Getting off of me, she laid herself down on the bed, turned around, and pushed her hair back. Raising her right hand to me, she put it behind my neck as I leaned forward. Sliding back inside, deeper, and just hitting that spot while betting on my last ounce of strength. I just knew I was hard, I was close. We both knew that. Feeling myself beginning to twitch feverishly, my cock bucking forward, going deeper into her, and spilling precum. And with her becoming louder, I knew I was doing something right.

Now becoming lost in an oddly-tuned sonata constituted of every possible sound that can be made through pleasure. Yet, I was taking a back seat, just another player behind a row of instruments, and she took center stage. Biting my lip and tried to muffle myself while she just took my cock under me, and let it all out, beginning to crumble to my thrusts. While she writhed, her tits shaking as I gave it to her, she couldn’t do anything else. She didn’t talk, not that she wanted to anyway.

Then an idea came to me. Releasing myself from her grip, I put grabbed her by the hips and bucked forward. Seeing her eyebrows furrow, then drop her head with the loudest moan she could. It was raw and primal, and that was the green light I needed. Hearing the bed start creaking as I continued, my fingers pressing against the soft flesh of her hips, making sure she wasn’t going anywhere, the sound of slapping crotches echoing as we approached the end.

I didn’t even know if I needed to pull out. All I knew was we were neck-in-neck in orgasm. A few rising moans left Chaehyun, and with what came next. It was an idea that came too late.

Seizing up with a wince, she threw her head backward, tightened, and shook. I saw her eyes shut while her folds squirmed around my shaft, completely careless as I continued through it all. Then I followed, groaning as I slumped forward, burying my hips deep in her, trapped in her orgasm as my cock jerked in tow and released the first two spurts of cum into her. It became even a challenge to keep myself upright She moaned loudly, grabbing me where she could as she felt it too, coming along and feeling my loins empty into her almost by the pint, completely awash with bliss. For a second, the combined orgasm seemed endless.

We remained frozen, tightly sealed with each other, panting as exhaustion began to set in. Giving ourselves a minute, and as I started to feel limp, it hit me. I had an unused condom, and I just came inside Chaehyun.

"Fuck, no, no, no, no,” I stuttered, looking down at our connection, apologizing for not holding out, “I-I’m so sorry."

"No, don’t be,” she managed to squeak out, turning her head to me, “That’s what I wanted you to do."

I just chuckled, relieved, as she came in for a kiss. Giving it to her and letting nervousness aside before I pulled out, barely having the strength to grab the tissue, I tossed it to her as she leaked onto the bed. Taking care of our mess while we both calmed down and collected whatever was left of us.

Instinctively, the second thing I needed to get was our cellphones. I handed Chaehyun’s purse over as I got on my side of the bed. However, I had to get used to sharing it with a woman again. Hearing her snicker as I just scrolled through social media, I asked jokingly.

"You’re not broadcasting what we just did, aren’t you?"

"No,” she replied, lying through her teeth, but smiled with a chuckle as she read the doubt on my face, which I just hid by minding my business. I just thought that this probably was the least worrying scandal to be involved in during this day and age. It was just two friends going third base, albeit rushing it somehow.

“It only did seem like a matter of time, didn’t it?” Chaehyun said as she stood up. I just sat up against the wall, having heard it, and was well into thinking. Yet looking up, I was still smitten by the pale, plump, but svelte brunette that stood with her back against me.

“Yeah,” I answered.

She already knew that was the answer. And with her inner thighs having become stained with our fluids, coupled with her intent for more, I can’t deny it now. And to be fair, I wouldn’t be so worried about being with her.

I felt a little sweaty and didn’t want it to catch up to me like a headache. I walked over to the shower and opened the lights. Chaehyun was looking at me as she sat—both of us butt naked—as I stood in the doorway.

“You want to do it a few more times, right?” I asked. She agreed, remembering her somewhat cavalier request.

“Maybe wash up first,” she said. Feeling a little defeated as I thought I’d have to go at it alone.

Then Chaehyun interjected.

“Leave the door open too. I’ll join you."

Bingo.