"I don't have the first chapter. But I'm writing every chapter from here." Today Jisoo cast a stranger to play the man she loves and discovered a photo album full of a life she never lived. She is living a love story in translation — in 2026 she translates it into art for strangers, in 1994 she translates herself into a love built for a woman she replaced. And somewhere between two centuries, the same moon watches both of her lives.
2026 | Seoul
The first proper light of dawn was a cold, clinical bleach washing over the Gangnam skyline, turning the distant Han River into a strip of tarnished silver. Jisoo stood at the window until the numbness in her feet from the chilled floor became more immediate than the phantom warmth still clinging to her skin. The city below was assembling itself for the day, a silent, efficient machine. She was a cog that needed to be inserted.
She turned. Dalgom, a small, white sphinx on his orthopedic memory foam bed, observed her with the profound indifference of a creature whose world began and ended with kibble and strategically deployed sunbeams.
“Right,” Jisoo said to the room, her voice scratchy with disuse. “Professionalism.”
She moved through the morning rituals on autopilot. A shower so hot it left her skin pink and steaming, as if trying to scald away the memory of a different body’s heat. She chose an outfit with the tactical precision of a general preparing for a covert operation: a cream-colored, cashmere-blend knit dress, soft but structured, black tailored trousers, minimal jewelry. Armor for the soul. Each piece felt like a layer of insulation against the surreal day ahead.
In the kitchen, pouring water into Dalgom’s bowl, the absurdity of it all finally crashed over her. The water sloshed over the rim.
“Dalgom-ah,” she said, crouching to wipe the spill with a paper towel. The dog began lapping water, ignoring her. “Today, I am going to sit in a rented room in Samseong-dong and watch approximately twenty human men—strangers, actors—attempt to conjure the essence of a person whose heartbeat I used as a lullaby a moment ago. They will read words I wrote about him. They will try to mimic the way he smiles with just the left side of his mouth first. They will kneel on a fake wooden floor and pretend to care about fictional slippers.”
Dalgom finished his water and sat, looking up at her expectantly. Breakfast was late.
“They have never smelled the particular blend of old paper, sea salt, and cheap laundry soap that lives in the collar of his shirts. They’ve never heard him attempt to harmonize with a trot song on a crackling kitchen radio and fail spectacularly, then laugh at himself without a trace of shame. They don’t know that he folds receipts into perfect, tiny squares before throwing them away, or that his ears turn pink when he’s concentrating, or that he hums when he’s worried.”
She opened the container of premium, air-dried dog food, the scent of liver and sweet potato filling the sterile kitchen air. Dalgom’s focus was absolute.
“My job today is to evaluate their performance. To judge whether their eyes are warm enough, whether their hands move with the right unthinking gentleness, whether they can project the specific, quiet solidity of a man who leaves a glass of room-temperature water on the nightstand because his pregnant wife once mumbled in her sleep that cold water gives her cramps.” She doled the food into his bowl. “I have to find the one who comes closest to capturing all of that, without being able to tell a single soul in that room what ‘closest’ is measured against. What the real template is.”
Dalgom began to eat, the rhythmic crunching the only sound in the vast, quiet apartment.
Jisoo stayed crouched, watching him. “You’re right. Professional distance. Objective criteria. The character of ‘Seok-woo’ is a narrative construct with defined traits. I will assess the actors’ ability to embody those traits. I will not, under any circumstances, compare the shape of their hands to his hands. I will not listen for the ghost of his laugh underneath theirs. I will not, while watching a stranger kneel, remember what it felt like last night when he—”
Her voice cracked. She closed her eyes, pressing the heels of her palms against them. A pressure was building behind her sternum, sharp and familiar.
Dalgom finished his breakfast, licked his chops twice with definitive finality, and trotted away towards the living room, his nails clicking a dismissive rhythm on the polished concrete.
“I’m going to cry in the casting session, aren’t I,” Jisoo said to the empty space where he’d been.
The apartment offered no contradiction.
The casting studio was a featureless box in a building made of glass and ambition, high above the relentless flow of Teheran-ro. The air smelled of recycled oxygen, coffee, and the faint, citrus-tinged panic of people trying to fit lifetimes of work into shrinking calendars.
Jisoo took her seat at the long table, placing her notebook and a single black pen with precise alignment. To her right, Director Kwon Hyuk was a study in contained energy, sipping barley tea from a thermos, his eyes already seeing scenes no one else could. To her left, Park Junho, the screenwriter, fidgeted with his printed sides, the pages whispering his anxiety. At the far end, the casting director, Ms. Ahn—a woman in her fifties with a helmet of impeccable black hair and eyes that missed nothing—consulted her iPad, a conductor before a symphony of hope and desperation.
The atmosphere wasn’t just charged; it was pressurized. Seri had laid down the law in the hallway five minutes prior, her voice a low, urgent blade. “The slot is confirmed. tvN. Late-spring premiere. That gives us sixty-seven days until episode one airs. The first four episodes must be in the can before that. The set is built. The crew is on payroll starting Monday. The supporting cast has signed. Every day we don’t have our Seok-woo is a day we burn money and lose light. This,” she had said, gripping Jisoo’s forearm for a second, “is no longer a creative exploration. It’s a extraction. Find the heart today, or we lose the body.”
Now, Tae-woong, the perpetually harried production coordinator, stood at a monitor mounted on the side wall, tapping the screen. A Gantt chart glowed, a cascade of red dependencies. “To reiterate,” he said, voice tight, “the exterior shoot in Gunsan is locked for the 18th and 19th. The interior set is ready for principal photography starting the 22nd. If we don’t have a signed contract for the male lead by 5 PM tomorrow, the Gunsan block collapses. Pushing it back requires renegotiating every local permit and vendor contract, which adds cost and, more critically, two weeks to the schedule. Two weeks we do not have. The network will pull the slot. It’s that simple.”
Kwon nodded, unruffled. “Then we won’t be late.” He said it like commenting on the weather.
Ms. Ahn cleared her throat. “We have twelve readings scheduled. Five-minute slots. Scene is Page 42, Episode 3—the slippers. We’ll move quickly.”
The first actor entered. Handsome in a textbook way, tall, with the confident posture of someone who’d played doctors and lawyers. He read with competence. His kneeling was graceful, balletic. He looked up at the reader—a young female assistant from Ms. Ahn’s office—with a smile meant to convey deep affection.
Jisoo’s pen didn’t move. He kneels like he’s in a period drama, presenting a ring to a princess, she thought. Suho kneels like he’s picking up a dropped pen. There’s no audience in his mind. No performance. This man is performing ‘care.’ Suho just… cares.
“Thank you,” Ms. Ahn said, her voice giving nothing away. “We’ll be in touch.”
The next few blurred into a montage of near-misses and fundamental misreadings.
Actor 2 had a beautiful, resonant voice but delivered every line with the weight of a prophecy, turning “You’ll catch a cold” into a tragic declaration.
Actor 3 was boyishly charming but played the moment for a laugh, winking after putting the slippers on.
Actor 4, an established name from daily dramas, brought a palpable sadness to the scene, as if putting on slippers was a melancholy duty. Jisoo watched, her stomach sinking. Seok-woo isn’t sad. He’s not weighed down by the gesture. It lightens him. It’s a thing he gets to do.
Actor 5 had the warmth, but it was a general, broadcast warmth, like a space heater. It wasn’t directed. It didn’t focus on the specific person in front of him.
Actor 6 was technically flawless, every pause measured, every glance intentional. It felt like watching a masterfully assembled watch tick. Jisoo wrote a single word on her notepad: Calculated.
The room’s tension thickened with each dismissal. Tae-woong’s knee was bouncing a frantic rhythm under the table. Junho had started drawing small, agitated cubes in the margin of his script. Kwon remained still, but his gaze kept flicking to Jisoo, reading her reactions like subtitles.
Actor 7 entered. He was older, a respected film actor slumming it for TV. His interpretation was paternal, gentle in a way that felt condescending. He patted the reader’s knee after the slippers were on. Jisoo felt a flash of irrational anger. He’s not her father. He’s her partner. He doesn’t pat. He just… moves on.
She was beginning to feel a cold despair. What if he didn’t exist? What if the particular alchemy of Suho—that unselfconscious, action-based love—was un-actable? What if she had written a ghost?
“Number eight is running late,” Ms. Ahn murmured, checking her watch. “We’ll skip to nine.”
The door opened.
Actor 9—Seo Hajin—walked in, and Jisoo’s first, defensive thought was: No.
He wasn’t conventionally handsome. His face was all interesting angles—a jaw that was strong but slightly asymmetrical, a nose that had probably been broken once, dark brows that framed eyes of a deep, unreadable brown. His hair was a thick, messy wave, looking less styled than simply tolerated. He was lean, dressed in a simple grey sweater and dark jeans. He carried no actorly aura, no invisible spotlight. He looked like someone who might fix your bookshelf.
He greeted the table with a short, polite bow, his voice a low, pleasant rumble. “Good morning.” He shook hands with the reader, asking her name. “Min-ju-ssi. Thank you for your time.” The courtesy was natural, not performative.
He took the script page, glanced at it for a moment, then looked around the sparse room. His eyes landed on a pair of plain blue guest slippers by the door, meant for clients. He walked over, picked them up, and placed them beside the chair where the reader, Min-ju, was sitting.
“Shall we?” he asked her, not the table.
He didn’t start from a marked position. He began already in motion, as if entering the scene from the back room of the shop. He noticed her bare feet, his gaze dropping and staying there for a half-second. Not a dramatic look, just a registration of fact.
Then he dropped.
It wasn’t a kneel. It was a drop. One knee hit the floor with a soft, solid thud, his body folding down with unthinking efficiency. No grace, no ceremony. He picked up the left slipper, held her heel gently to steady her foot, and slid it on. He did the same with the right, his thumbs checking the fit at the back of her heel—a small, practical gesture she’d never written in the stage directions. He didn’t look up at her face for a reaction, for connection. His focus was on the task. The task completed, he pushed himself back up to his feet, brushing a bit of invisible dust from his knee.
“You’re barefoot again,” he said.
The line was delivered not as a reprimand, not as a tender observation, but as a simple, neutral statement. The verbal equivalent of a shrug. He was already turning his body slightly toward the imagined counter, his hand reaching out as if for a cloth to wipe it down. The slipper moment was over. It had occupied exactly the mental space it deserved: a small, important chore, now done.
Jisoo’s pen slipped from her fingers, rolling across the table with a tiny clatter.
He continued. The scene had a few more lines—Soo-jin teasing him for being a worrywart, Seok-woo deflecting with a joke about the baby. Hajin delivered the punchline not with a comedian’s timing, but with a dry, understated wit that lived in his eyes, not his voice. When he said, “The baby wants it, you say?” that one eyebrow lifted. It wasn’t a smirk. It was a question, an acknowledgment of her transparent excuse, and a silent promise to play along because he loved her. It was in the subtle softening at the corners of his eyes.
He finished the page. The room was utterly silent.
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