SEVEN

Sana Minatozaki can go fuck herself.

That’s your measured opinion. You don’t care where she is. Dead, six feet under, beyond the veil, wherever —so long as someone gives her a proper kick to the rear.

Eyes are up from their desks, turning onto you, horrified maybe. Then again, your fists are clenched and your elbows locked as you maintain a pace that begs to break into a run. If there’s a scowl on your face, you doubt its efficacy all at the rainwater in your shoes squeaking on the end of every step.

A promotion was how it had all been pitched to you: fated, bound, hands tied to this incorrigible bag of hot air. If the ship’s going down, set to fail, you’ll be right there with her, and you can feel the water pooling at your feet, figuratively speaking.

-

“So?” Sana commits to the question once you’ve got yourself halfway through the door to your office, dripping wet. It’s unconvincingly casual. “You wanted to see me?”

A tragedy; in fact, you want nothing less, but it’s in the job description, a necessary evil. The baker bakes. The cobbler cobbles. And the manager manages, supposedly—you’ve mostly just been tearing your hair out.

“Honest to god,” you say, and you’ve never meant it more in your life, “I think I’m starting to understand it now. This whole revolving door of staff and management these past couple months.”

Sana tilts her head onto this inquisitive angle, and a bundle of copper hair falls across her cheek before getting dragged back behind her ear. “Oh? And what all did you figure out?”

“That you’re a royal pain in the ass,” you answer, untangling your arms from the soaked sleeves of your coat. “And a lot more trouble than you’re worth.”

“ Well.” The word is accompanied by a ridiculous sigh and the sound of her tongue clicking against her teeth. “You don’t suppose that’s on you? No one promised you it’d be easy.”

There’s a quiet pause, Sana slants her lips into a smirk, and that’s more or less how it always starts between you.

“No one promised anything,” you grumble.

Of course, the writing was on the wall, probably in big, bold letters too, you don’t know—you weren’t too interested in reading it—there were more important things on your mind. Fame; wealth; success; bragging rights; you’ll only let yourself call it hubris once you’ve really stepped in it, finally found something you couldn’t talk your way out of, come up with reason to believe there would be no digging yourself out. But until then—

“By the way…” Sana’s voice trails as she leans into the arm of the sofa, cheek resting on her hand, and then she furrows a manicured brow. “Why are you, like, totally soaked?”

You’re lenient or something, so it’s a question of your own you’ll trade with her, undoubtedly a better deal than she deserved. “Okay, sure then—let’s get into it. What’s your guess? Why is it do you think I had to chase down some jagoff in the middle of a damn rainstorm?” You toss Sana’s phone from the soaked pocket of your pants onto the table, and she watches it bounce and flip until it rests screen-side down. “It’s unlocked I guess. So, why don’t you do me a favor and just help me get out in front of it all; what the fuck did you have on there?”

“Oh.” Her voice fills with worry, head cocked anxiously. She seems completely taken aback, but like with most things, it’s all just a front, you’ve learned—and here, you couldn’t be more on the nose. She holds back a laugh, adding, “photos, videos —I mean, I don’t know, it could be anything. I’m a little disappointed you didn’t check yourself.”

“ Sana,” you groan. It’d be foolish not to believe her; it really could be anything, but that’s beside the point. You find the edge of your desk with your thighs, lean back, and you’re shaking your head. “The next time some shameless opportunist stumbles upon your phone and that meticulous archive of bad decisions, maybe I ought to just let you deal with it.”

She raises her eyebrows at you, mulling it over for a second like she was ever once invested in being useful. “That’s like, what the publicists are for aren’t they?”

Sana’s young, you remind yourself. It’s good practice. But she’s old enough to know better, what all she’s doing, how dangerous she can be. It’s not like her praises are hard to come by around the office: the beautiful Sana Minatozaki, an angel among us, she’s perfect! If you can hear them in passing through the glass windows of your office, so can she; they’re right on the money, mostly, but you’re also not so easily fooled—or rather, you aren’t anymore. See, you get in front of a girl like her, and she’s got these big, bright, beautiful eyes, a face that never fails to be the most charming in the room without boasting about itself, a body like that, legs like those —

“Look.” You blink several times.

Caught yourself staring.

“I mean, sure—but I can’t imagine that’s going to be an easy one to spin.”

She cocks an eyebrow in something like curiosity. “ What’s not going to be?”

“The video Sana—the one where you’ve got your lips around some cock like it’s a cheap homemade porno.”

“So then, you did take a look,” she says, rising onto the pointed tips of a pair of black heels. It’s a sign, an omen, a premonition—the renewed smirk on her lips that speaks louder than that soft, measured voice of hers might ever dare. “Hard opportunity to pass up, huh?”

“For god’s sake—” Going with your gut, you cross your arms. And your voice searches frantic for a commanding tone. “If it isn’t my job to know how you’ve fucked up.”

“And I so very much appreciate all your wonderful effort,” she over-enunciates through each syllable of your name. That same exact pleasantry she’d wish to the staff and crew at the end of a photo shoot, a recording, some nonsense event or another—only now, it’s derisive, laced with this sarcastic edge that is anything but subtle.

“It isn’t funny, Sana.”

“Do you see me laughing?”

You don’t. Though there’s still a lot to see admittedly, a lot to take in, most of it beyond damning. A long leg of hers ruffles and furls the bottom of her dress until she’s a step closer, two steps now actually. You can take your pick—start at the bottom up or from the top down, and the result is just about the same by the time you’ve gotten to her tiny waist: she’s gorgeous.

For a lot of reasons however, you’re not about to leer.

Her shoulders square to yours and you remind yourself she’s not very tall; even in those ridiculous heels, she comes up just shy of your nose. Between you and absolutely nobody else, you have considered it, let it fill an evening of fantasy or two—how she might bend and fold, how her small, tight body might be best put to use, the faces she’d make cumming on your cock, the sound of her straining voice when you really—

No, you’re absolutely not leering.

“I’m serious,” you hear yourself say, and it’s shaky, struggling to come across resolute, hardly anything convincing. “Just keep on fucking around—I promise you; you’re on your own.”

“Oh, is that so?” She smiles again, and you note how it deepens a dimple in each cheek. “And when it all comes crashing down—how should I ask that the director refer to you in their letter to the board: idiot or incompetent?”

Eyes glowing, she seems wholly uninterested in the stark departure from how she normally needles you—all that subtext and words unsaid. You simply raise an eyebrow. There’s a pause, and she raises one back.

“ Ahem,” you try to recover.

Sana leans into you, one hand on either side of your waist, palms flat on your desk. And there’s that thought running a muck in your head again: all those musings about power dynamics, authority, subordination, governance, whatever it is this mess is you’ve gotten yourself into. It’s comical. You’d never once had a problem with any of your previous assignments. Dahyun? Delightful. Tzuyu —a total saint. Nayeon might as well have managed herself. It’s unclear when or how, but the woman in front of you had puzzled out that she was capable of anything—destruction, demolition, devastation. You knew it; she knew it too; Sana could ruin you.

“ Hmm?” she adds, smug and indignant.

“I’ve given it some thought,” you start, letting a heavy sigh roll through your chest like that’s ever been some herald of a rousing speech. But there is a plan, or at least what you’d learned about in those binders and seminars on this kind of stuff. “Look, to be honest, you’re going to hate me for it—but we’re going to be moving to some sort of curfew; until all this gets sorted out.”

“A curfew?” Her eyebrows twist, disappointed.

“Among other things,” you say, and now you’re digging a heel into the dirt of this forsaken partnership. “No more clubs.”

“ No more clubs?”

“No boys, no bars, and for god’s sake Sana—no fucking filming yourself having sex.”

“No boys?” she gawks like it’s the most egregious of what you’d asked, mouth dropping agape in this faux outrage.

“Just until we hit a groove; figure out what works; find our rhythm.”

“ Find our rhythm?”

“You can stop repeating me.”

“You can stop repea—” She takes a beat to swallow down the rare slip-up, eyes looking for even a momentary weakness in yours. But you’re a professional; she comes up empty. Her brows relax and she tilts her head. “ Reprimanding me.”

Your voice, finally solidifying in its fitful composure, opens into a complaint, “it’s honestly a shock to me you know—how you’ve lasted this long. In this industry, like this.”

You lean back, chest tightening, acutely aware that her eyes refuse to leave yours.

“They always say that.” And she’s grinning, ear to ear, again. This time, you’re gazing—the shape of her lips, the pretty things swelling and curving into that fine little point beneath her nose. A finger lands on your chest and she’s determined to cross a boundary or two.

You swallow again at the dryness in your throat.“ Really.”

“You know what else they always say?”

“If you think I’m about to guess, you’d be—”

“ Curfew,” she mocks, voice hitting at an unrealistically low register. It’s rather heartless the way she rolls her eyes, deceiving the roundness in her cheeks, the ever-so-perfect waves in her hair, the intoxicating charm that is her image. “ No boys, no bars, no— ”

“So, you’re telling me,” you interrupt, more than satisfied with the imitation, “that in six months, six different managers, six different calamities, I’m not the first person to suggest some structure? Color me shocked Sana.”

“No. You’re not. But this is the part where you tell me: Sana, I’m a professional. And you’ve got your hands out like you don’t want it and you’re backing up into the desk, bumbling and stuttering like you’re not losing control.” One more step into you, and it’s evil, wicked, sinful the way you’re noticing it all: the pretty little details in her eyes, her cheeks, her smile. “I always say the same thing; I’m a professional too ya know. And I just so happen to be in the business of making people want me.”

The motion is inelegant given what you’re sure she’s capable of, the way her hand cups your crotch. It sounds silly when you say it like that, but that’s just kind of how it happens.

“Sana—”

“Wow. You’re like, so fucking wet down here.” She laughs to herself, having now found some comedy in it all. “That’s usually what they say too.”

There’s a smug glimmer in her eyes when she finds you, the semi-hardened jut at the rise of your pants, fingers happily mapping out your shape beneath all the damp fabric. It’s more than just a boundary, and this searing heat starts to lick at your jaw. You’d grab her wrists, wrestle her away, but you’re not confident how it might all go if you start touching her; pin one behind her back, bend her against the desk; hell, she’s probably not wearing anything under that—okay, now you’re leering.

You swallow hard at the absolute casualness about her light fingers, undoing the belt and button at the waist of your pants. “So now what?” you ask, as though you were incapable of putting two and two together, as if you hadn’t been privy to these kind of rumors for months. “You’re going to bargain your way out?”

“Bargain?” She scoffs, and even that’s a pretty noise—the sound of it running through your head where it twists into moans, squeals and whimpers. Her eyes light up, and you’re hopeless, coming undone. “Isn’t that charitable. Like you haven’t been dying to stick your cock in me for weeks.”

“ Sana.” Your last chance at professionalism, at propriety; so, abysmally it’s just her namethat falls out of your mouth. But that’s how it comes together—or perhaps it falls apart—your cautionary tale, The Story of Manager Number Seven you’ll call it. It’s ruinous, it’s disastrous, worst of all—it’s instinct.

“Don’t waste the effort.” Her chin cocks up and you’re left staring down the barrel. “Besides, I’m just saying the quiet part out loud, aren’t I?”

You doubt you’ll be around to meet manager number eight, and you’re certain one will come to be—maybe they’ll even read your memoirs; you wish them luck. Because the truth is, and you hate to say it, she’s got you all figured out.

-

Right from the jump, Sana confirms all your suspicions: she’s incredibly selfish. Pulling, gnawing, grabbing at your lower lip until it starts to swell, she hops up onto your desk. Something critical snaps, a cable cut, and you’re following right along with her. Each and every sinful step surely on a path to damnation.

“Well?” she asks, expectant and landing kisses on your cheek.

A whole assortment of paperweights, papers, pens, things that have been little use to you, crash onto to the floor. “Anything I want?” you ask, repeating yourself, unable to tire of its answer. “What if I’m - well, for lack of a better word, a total freak? Deal still on the table?”

“ Hah.” Sana smirks again—it’s kind of her thing, you’ve come to realize, but now you feel it on your skin. Her fingers are working down the front of your damp shirt, and she answers with a bluntness that leaves you feeling if anything, a little insulted, “You’re not.”

“And what then, I suppose you know everything there is to know about me?” You’ve got your hands on her waist when you realize she’s not wrong. You’re not. But the shape of her body, under your fingertips, from just above where her hips narrow, it is everything you imagined it might be: wholly divine and capable of anything. You’ll ruin it—it just might ruin you too.

“Trust me, there’s a type,” she laughs, “you come in here every day…” The sleeves of your shirt fall around your shoulders, and her gaze makes this journey about you, a momentary glance, and her eyebrow lifts as if to say not bad or this will do. “Same suit, same shoes, same coffee, same frustrated look on your face—just trust me.”

She’s got it pretty dead on, not that you really care; you’re just not that kind of guy. But the way she says it, with such confidence, that’s a challenge. Oh, it’s probably to your detriment; you’ve always been competitive—you’ll surprise her. “ I guess we’ll see.”

You bury a hand into her hair before she has the chance to get on with the next snarky thought or another, and her head is tilted back, lips parting for you. Your tongues meet, first in your mouth, then in hers. Humming gently, Sana’s voice fills your throat, and all that hangs in the balance is rushing through your thoughts again—go ahead, mark your calendar; today’s the day you’ve thrown your career away. Because when you push her legs apart, her dress finally all hiked up around her tiny waist, and you’ve got your finger against the lace fabric across her entrance—

“ Fuck,” she gasps into your mouth, at least you think she does. It’s a good guess considering those nails, manicured and polished into sharp points, sinking into your shoulders. Her hips push themselves into you, pressing more of that fabric into your touch. You follow it down, trace it with your finger, dragging the loose-fitting lace along the way, and her folds nearly wrap around you, begging.

Your lips smack, spit trailing off them when you pull yourself back. You’re both catching your breath and it’s your turn to be smug, “I think this is the part where I say, wow Sana, you’re so fucking wet down here.”

“Just stick to the script, and I promise I’ll go easy on you,” she says, voice cold and calculated, as if her lip doesn’t wince every time you swirl the pads of your fingers over her mound.

Day by day, brick by brick, Sana’s broken you down to this. And now the smell of her hair in your nose, the taste of her lips filling your mouth, the feeling of that tender skin spreading between your fingers—you’re beyond fucked, she’s necessity.

You’ve sunk to your knees, and apparently the feeling is mutual; her hands pushing down on your shoulders as you go, impatient, greedy even. You start from her calf, down the length of a thigh, considering how it might bruise and mar, the taut pale skin a fresh canvas for your work. It’s a mistake, or you’re moving too slow, some transgression or another— isn’t it always? There’s a stifled groan off her lips, and she’s got her legs wrapping over your shoulders, heels clacking when she digs them into your back, pulling you into her. But you’ve earned it—you’re usually the one making demands, and it’s your turn to ignore them.

“What’s all this, hmm?” Her fingers thread through your hair, pulling you away from the kisses, licks and nibbles you find all over the curve of her thigh, the places you’ve only buried and turned over in your thoughts for weeks. “You think you’re going to, like, make me fall in love with you or something? Get me so hot and bothered, I scream out, please, anything! I need you!” She gets her hand firm on your jaw, eyes smoldering something into yours like they’re stamping out a cigarette. “It’s actually kinda cute.”

“Maybe. Then again, I’m not the one gushing through my underwear at the thought of getting fucked.” Your fingers are hooking into her panties when you thoroughly catch the look on her face one last time—it’ll be worth remembering. You let yourself laugh through your words, “so I mean, I guess that’s up to you.”

“Careful what you wish for.” If she’s wagging a finger, you can’t see it, buried between Sana’s thighs. “Or I swear I’ll fuck all that attitude out of you.”

“I’m kinda counting on it.”

You’re talking about it like it’s casual, like this dereliction of duty has any other outcome than your ass on the curb or her name into scandalous obscurity. You catch it briefly, the eyebrow jumping and the haughty laugh out her nose; she really is pretty, even when she abandons that whole front, the delicate projection of sweet innocence and mild mischief. Who knows—maybe you prefer it now, all the more that the expression on her face is yours to pull apart.

Tightening her thighs on you, holding you firm, Sana cooperates only in so far as to help a pair of underwear roll down a leg and onto her ankle, and her pussy’s there, shimmering and glistening at you, an open invitation for your tongue—you’ll get around to it, but not until you’ve had your fill of everything else that’s been driving you nuts for weeks on end.

She swallows hard and snaps, “Why the hell are you teasing me?”

You’ve said it before, you’ll say it again, “boy Sana, you’re real mouthy today.” A finger on her lips, brushing the surface of her aching entrance again, and she pulls a short tight breath past her teeth. “Aren’t you?”

“Then maybe you can stop fucking around and just get to—”

It doesn’t matter what she was going to say. It gets all caught and stuck in her throat on the way up so bad that you know it wasn’t important. The more pressing matter, your tongue against her clit, is about how the muscles in her stomach jerk and spasm about. That touch, it’s like it electrifies her. The lilting groan however—the one she fails to choke back—that’s from your finger you reckon, pushing its way inside her. You add another one for good measure. She can take it. She’ll take more.

“Shit,” Sana mumbles, sucking on her lip, and then before a tiny punched-out breath punctuates the thought, she releases it, letting her mouth hang open when you find her swollen nub in yours, sucking and teasing without too much consideration. The shoe’s on the other foot: each brush of your fingers against her, where you’ve found her, and she shakes, hips jolting around you. Given that you’ve been laboring without any useful results to lead, direct, govern this girl for weeks, you’re chuckling out your nose that it’s now, like this, that she finally becomes anything close to compliant.

Whatever clutter’s still left on your desk rattles. Sana’s leaning back into it now, elbows propping up her small torso, and she steadies herself, failing against your tongue, your lips, especially your fingers. Her cheeks flood with this brilliant shade of pink, and she’s inching off the desk trying to force as much of herself into your mouth where you find her so wet you can feel her dripping down her chin. Even though you’ve never been the type, you can’t help yourself—licking around her quivering lips, around where she clearly needs you, you find yourself teasing, “What do you know Sana? I think I’ve lost my place in the script—you always cum this fast or…”

She shoots you a glare despite the blush staining her cheeks, but when her mouth opens to voice a complaint, you’ve got her mewling again—a cruel pace set into your fingers, creating this absolute mess between her thighs. Her palms slap the table, and she’s breathing in fits and starts, something akin to anticipation. She’s close and she knows it. In fact, you know it too, considering she’s so soaked her taste lingers long in your mouth when you stand yourself up, fingers still buried in her cunt.

“ Ohhh … that’s it, right there, fucking hell,” she whines, and the ends of her words are soaked in these rasping moans. “I can’t— fuck!”

“ Sana,” you start, and she’s dodging your eyes, ashamed at the twist on her face, the way her brows knit all at that squelching pleasure between her legs. It seems her pride may still have its limits.

“I’m gonna—” Her expression freezes, and that’s when you think you have her, but she keeps going. For a while. There’s only that loud, messy noise on your fingers in the shallow heat of her pussy until she decides she’s going to collapse into it all. Her eyes shut, and you watch as Sana realizes the bound of her voice to be no more than a hushed whisper, each utterance filling with these needy gasping breaths that rack her whole body, “ I’m gonna - I’m gonna - I’m gonna - I’m gonna— ”

Her hips buck and jump, dragging herself along the shape of your fingers and she swallows down a husked moan. And then another. Until finally, she’s crying out.

“Fu— ah! I’m cumming!” Sana manages, and only now you’re believing her, the words on the verge of tears. “ I’m cumming - I’m cumming— ”

Mouth agape, some silent curse or another, she locks up. It’s a whole look—you tuck it away somewhere, the score still horrifically in her favor, but at least you’re finally on the board. “There you go,” you whisper, knowing your assurances make it all the more embarrassing, “ That’s a good girl Sana; just keep cumming for me.”

It’s the smoldering heat quivering on your fingers, the first words of praise out of your mouth in god knows how long, those office supplies still falling to the floor as you suspend her in anguished pleasure—it undoes her. You’ve never seen her like this. Your fingers gliding through the mess of her aching cunt, you have to see more.

“Fuck—” she huffs.

You can nearly see the bright red flush on her cheeks peek out through the hands she’d thrown up to cover her face.

“— you,” she finishes, and it’s a little more on brand.

When you reach down to pull her hands away, to kiss her, there’s no resistance—she’s putty, malleable, whatever you need her to be. She squirms when you pull your fingers out from inside her, sloppy and messy with her own cum, but you’re more shocked at how easily she lets you put them in her mouth. That’sa development. And you’re not going to be shy to say it. It’s fucking hot.

“ Sana… ” your voice trails as she hums on your fingers, her tongue gently finding the space between them. Her cheeks still burning, the way she sucks and licks her taste off you has you stuck daydreaming how it will look, how it will feel when it’s your cock between her perfect lips.

A light knock lands on the door to your office. Twice. And when that second knock does arrive, it has your stomach jumping into your chest. It’s unfortunate, but you’ll have to keep imagining.

“One second!” you shout out, realizing now you’ve never once had the blinds drawn or the door locked. It’s not a great look; hopefully you’re overthinking it. You pull your shirt off the floor and prance toward the door.

Sana sits herself up, brings her dress back down around her thighs and plops herself right back down on the sofa where you found her. Steadying her breath and watching you quietly spread apart the blinds with your fingers, she wipes a lash from her eye, asking, “Who is it?”

“Dahyun.” You rise on the toes of your shoes to get a better look. The black hair pulled back into a ponytail and those wide lenses sitting across the bridge of her nose more than clue you in. “I think.”

“What does she want?”

“Hell if I know.”

“Well, let her in.”

The last button on your shirt comes together and you’re opening the door—slowly. “Yeah?”

“Hey. Sana here?” Dahyun asks as though there’s nothing out of the ordinary. She sticks her head into the opening further until she’s half in your office, half out. Innocently unaware of the scene she’d just interrupted, her lips snap to this toothy grin and it becomes a pitiful reminder of the countless days you toiled to get where you are—responsible, respected, time specifically not spent fucking Sana with your fingers.

“Oh hey hello,” Sana nearly sings, and her voice is no where near rasped like it just was. It’s a little incredible honestly how she springs back, elastic. Still preening her hair back into something close enough to perfection, she asks, “What can I do for ya?”

Dahyun scans you head to toe, taking a full confident step into your office as you open the door further. She lifts a disapproving eyebrow. “Wow. You look awful by the way.”

You let out this heavy, labored sigh. “Yeah, well, the rain, and the—”

“He’s had a rough go at today,” says Sana, filling in the rest with only what’s prudent.

Dahyun looks at Sana, then back to you and smiles with half her mouth. “Well, maybe you need it too—Nayeon’s got a tab open at the place on the corner opposite the station. The one with the weird windows. Told me to tell you.”

“Sounds fun.” The words come out of both Sana’s mouth and yours in this strange tandem. It sounds suspicious because it is; you’ve never once been in accord on anything.

“Yeah. Well. See you there or something, I guess.” The door closes behind Dahyun and it takes a moment for the sound of your heartbeat to leave your ears.

“You mind handing me those?” Sana points to your desk, and your stomach drops when you see them: her wadded underwear sitting right in the middle of it all. “I kinda need ‘em.”

You’re blocking it all out in your head, assessing the damage before you find yourself willfully distracted. It’s a spectacle even in reverse, Sana’s legs stretching out as she rolls the black lace back up her thighs.

“ Thanks,” she says, standing up and tossing those long copper locks of hair behind her shoulders. It could be a few things that earned you that gratitude, so you’re answering for all of them, “Yeah, no problem.”

You’ve got your jacket back on, pulling your office back together into something orderly when you decide you’re going to try and repair more than just the room. “Look. Sana.”

Her head tilts and a curtain of hair spills over her shoulder. She’s waiting on your words.

“I don’t care what you do—just do me a favor. Try to behave yourself. For your sake. All of that just now,” you say, and your tongue clicks while you stew in discomfort. “Look. That was a mistake—”

“Oh?” Her voice pitches, and you’re left staring. It’s not long before she realizes you haven’t much of anything else to add, amused at the half words and sounds forming on your lips.

“I’ll tell you what we’re going to do.” Sana wedges herself between you and the door, hands tucked behind her back, and her chin cocks up again. “You’re going to go home. You’re going to shower, get some decent clothes, and you’ll be at that bar.”

Your lips tighten and your eyes narrow, a glance at the small wet stain lingering on your office’s sofa. “For what Sana?”

She laughs, really just a lovely sound—you shouldn’t be dwelling on it. You shouldn’t have already dwelled on it, but you abandoned prudence some time ago. Holding your eyes with hers, she lets her lip go from between her teeth and in a few simple words, she reminds you that you’ve really stepped in it.

“ Cause - we’re - not - done.” Another smile, and the dusty browns and grays in her eyes are as deep as ever.“I better see you at seven.”

-

So, you’re sitting, sipping on something strong because it’s more than what you need when you notice there’s this line dividing the table, staff on one side, the usual suspects on the other. And you’re in the booth as well, disappointed there wasn’t some sort of larger crowd—something you might slip away into.

There are a few changes in seating when someone gets up to get more drinks or use the restroom or something like that. And it’s at the bottom of a rum and coke when Sana’s found the spot next to you, ever so slightly hanging on your shoulder—just absent enough that she might blame the alcohol, lean into it, play it up; present enough that it’s all you can think about.

“ Hey,” she says, once softly into your ear, and it’s overflowing with more suggestion than might ever fit into a single syllable. It registers; something clicks; you’ll play. Your gaze shifts around the table and back to where the neckline of her dress dips before it finds her.

“Hey.” You’ve got it casual. At that, she smiles.

You’ll say something, and it’s got her laughing. Sana’s eyes are bright, cheery, and even though the lights are dimmed, you swear you’ve seen nothing prettier. Her head is on your shoulder and she tucks the corner of her lip between her teeth when you make her laugh again. She listens well. She speaks even better—clever, sharp-tongued, sharp-witted—making it look effortless. It’s magnetic. Hell, you don’t even notice her reeling you in, capturing you, cursing you. Perhaps it’s like this, outside of all that about rules and protocol—where she’s poised, presentable and balancing herself on the razor’s edge of this perfect image everyone’s come to expect from her—who couldn’t fall for her if just a little?

“I bet you’re still thinking about it,” she whispers when she’s sure no one else is listening. “How your cock will stretch me. How you’ll use me.”

Catching yourself, it is just a little you fall; god knows you’ve fallen further. There’s plenty of reason to take a pause, a breather, resume your worry—but you’re fixed on the lines of her face, serene and perfectly uncomplicated in the dim light, her expression full of simple joy. Though you trust her as far as that smile stretches across her lips, you’re watching closely as they part again.

“Let me tell you what I think…” Her hands land in your lap, asking questions whose answers might only be found where your cock struggles beneath the fabric of your pants. You’re sure someone’s bound to notice how close she is, hanging, clinging, wrapping herself around you. It’s like she wants to be caught—but fate isn’t so kind; a disaster it is that no one does. The stroke of fortune only ignites the hushed breath landing in your ear, “why don’t we, like, go find somewhere quiet?”

She’s duplicitous, destructive, deadly— spins lies for the sheer thrill of it, you’ve decided—a wolf in sheep’s clothing. But you’re leaning into it too, you’re allowing it, you’re letting her—you’ll be damned if you aren’t just one of the herd.

-

It started when Sana dragged you by the wrist across the length of the bar and leaned into your ear. She first asked about someplace more private, then she suggested the ladies’ room, then you scoffed about what a terrible idea it was and then she said I promise I won’t be too loud and you felt your entire body shift.

It’s rare for you to make mistakes, to slip up like this— especially like this—but then there Sana is, her back against the door of one of the stalls, chin up, the swell of her lip caught cruelly between her teeth, and eyes shut tight as you push your fingers deeper inside her. It’s not like you, you repeat for the last time in your head, airing out the loose thought somewhere to dry when you notice the dull burn of something like adrenaline, the throbbing pulse in your tongue, your throat, the tips of your fingers—both those holding Sana tight at her waist, and the ones that keep coaxing these little whimpering hums out of her chest every time you curl them inside her. Your voice is coarse, and your tongue sticks to the rough of your mouth when you mutter her name; a betrayal apparently—those half-lidded eyes catch yours, and her lips slant like they know it just as well as you: you had plenty more mistakes to make.

“It’s kinda fucked up, you know that?” Sana sputters as though you need the reminder. “Like we went weeks, and what, your biggest fear that I’d end up somewhere like this? getting fucked?”

“I mean, if you’d rather I’d leave,” you suggest, pushing her hard enough into the stall that the whole assembly shakes and rattles, “maybe you could help me remember all that a little more—”

“ Don’t.” It comes out more severe than you’d expect from this girl creaming the lining of her underwear at your fingers gliding between her aching lips. You catch the look in her eye and it’s so badly betrayed by the shortness in her breath, the blush searing against her cheeks—you do the math; find it all adds up to need and lust and whatever else could’ve dragged you both into this stall.

“Yeah?” you ask, reveling once in these few opportunities you get to be the one looking smug and smirking at her. “And why not?”

Sana releases her fingers from around your cock, her hand sliding up from inside your pants and snapping at the front of your shirt. “Because you owe me.”

Before you can say anything, she pulls you into her, lips hard against yours. It hadn’t been long since she’d kissed you in your office—those few hours now feeling like ages ago. And even though you noticed it, beyond the way she licks your lips, bites them, pulls you into her and sends these tiny quiet moans into your mouth, you couldn’t quite put it into words then.

See, you’ve kissed your fair share of girls who’d done nothing less than a good job, but never before had they given it their whole attention, their whole being. There was always something on their mind, some idle thought or distraction: what time the last train left the platform, what day of their cycle it was, doubting their own technique, too much tongue, not enough tongue, if it’s too forward to grab that hand on their breast by the wrist and shove it between their thighs—Sana is none of that. Even while the fingers you shove up her cunt are drawing out all these gasps and hiccups, and ignoring the fact that between her legs is precisely where she needs you, she’s on you with this intensity that never once seems to let you out of its focus.

But no, to be clear, she’s not perfect —the wide pad of your thumb on her clit more than reminds you both of that. Her lips smack as she pulls herself off you, those cute brows knit like she’s about to sneeze.

“Oh, fuck!” She throws her head back and it sends all this silky hair flying.

With a fistful of her dress, her ass, you pull her against you. Her cheeks are so red and her pussy so unbelievably wet that you’re blinking in awe, in admiration—Sana’s features twisting into this masterpiece, this look of pure delight. Her voice gets strangled into something more hoarse, something debauched, and she’s punching out these tiny nods as you fuck her with your fingers, circling your thumb around her clit.

“That feels so fucking good. I— please sir,” says Sana, and she’s leaning in like she knows you. Maybe she really does. “Make me fucking cum on your fingers, please, sir. I need it.”

You hear it; something short of understanding it. Tuck it away like it’s a clerical error or some trifling hiccup—fuck if that’s the Sana you know—but the way she’s got it repeating in your ear makes it click. It’s familiar, and fucked up, that musing again, except now it’s all turned on its head, about authority, about subordination: she needs your hand stern like she needs your cock hard—she gets off on it, you figure. It’s ridiculous and it’s so out of line and it’s so like nothing you’ve ever done and you can’t believe it’s in this restroom of all places and it’s so fucking hot and you’re living on borrowed time, leaning into it—

“Go ahead, beg for it Sana "—like, really leaning into it—"I need to hear you say it.”

“I can’t - fucking believe - just don’t stop, okay? Please sir, right there - right there - right there… ” Sana is whimpering and mewling through it all as you match and mirror that grind she makes against your fingers. Frustrated, fucked, she’s giving up on your pants, which to her credit, there was a bit more complication to a button and a zipper than simply hiking up her dress around her hips, but still, it’s fascinating to watch her come apart. Her arms fall limp and she’s finding a place to rest them over your shoulders, mumbling, murmuring, repeating, “Please sir, I’m so close …”

“ Sana.” You’ve got your lips against her ear and it all but kills her; she whimpers and whines as she sinks her weight onto you, the heat of her own name on your breath, the way you say it, pushing her so far onto that edge.

“Put it in - please, please, please, I need it,” Sana’s bleating only compounds when you pull your fingers from her cunt, looking at you like you’ve committed something heinous—which isn’t entirely off. Her voice squeals and trails again when you drag your palm across her clit, up across her stomach, “I’ll do anything, just give me your cock, and I’ll do anything, anything, please sir, I promise - I promise.”

Sana can’t even keep her own voice down, those needy moans splashing over all that tile around you and probably leaking out the door and into the hall. She’s in no position to bargain or plea, but as you pull her together enough in your hands, wrap the swell of her thigh around you and press your body against hers, she’s not the only one making promises she doesn’t intend to keep. “Don’t worry Sana. I’ll take good care of you.” Your voice is drier than expected, but it’s more than up to the task. “I’ll put this cock in you - and I’ll be nice and gentle; I’ll let you cum, now just be good for me, and I promise I’ll fuck you right.”

The sound of your zipper makes this echo—loud, uncompromising, unholy as if it were somehow the most debauched thing pouring out from where you and Sana had committed to turning the restroom into this whole menagerie of lustful noises. You pull her soaked panties to the side and her voice floods with desperation. “ Please —”

Sana whines, shuddering when the tip of your cock parts the swelling lips around her wet, needy entrance. Search for it, find it, and you’re groaning too—there’s no more hesitation the moment you slip your cock inside her.

“I can’t - you’re so fucking - fuck!” Sana swallows down these flailing gasps of air like she’d been held underwater, struggling spectacularly to bite back this broken moan. The lithe frame in your arms is teetering on the single heel still on the ground, relying on you, your chest, and your hips to keep her pinned to the stall. You’re holding her fragile world together; draw your hips back; drive into her again; you’ll tear it all apart.

Your teeth are gritting and your jaw clenched because she is so unbelievably tight, even all creamed and wet for you—but still, your focus is honed on her voice, keen to her movements, tuned to the way she writhes in your arms. Beyond the small tears filling out in her deep brown eyes, the lines of her face wincing and quivering, her eyelashes fluttering as your hips slam up into hers again, you’re acutely aware of the machinery in her head, of something deep inside her thoughts hitching, changing tracks, going with it; because this wasn’t what she’d expected: this was so much more than she’d expected.

“That’s it,” you say, jamming it into that moist breath you push out of your chest, “just feel how you’re stretching around me, Sana, you fucking need this. I promise - you’re going to cum on this cock - and I promise - you’ll do it again.”

“ F-fuck,” Sana rasps through it, her new favorite word. Your fingers dig into her ass and she’s biting down hard on its harsh final consonants, hiccuping, stuttering in the spaces your hips force between her mewls and cries. She swallows down at her indecency, scrambling for composure. “It’s so - I need you please - please, I need you to fuck me! - just use me.”

And so there you are, raising the stakes. Each thrust into the smoldering heat deep in her pussy finds you harsher, stronger, the pauses between your thrusts approaching nothing; far more than Sana can hope to recover. You gasp, shocked at how she manages to fit you, her tightness working against you just shy of allowing you to ruin her. “ Sana,” you start, and her own name becomes music to her ears, how it sounds deep and gravelly on your panting breath, “fuck yes, Sana, that’s a good girl - your pussy feels incredible.”

It’s your voice, it’s the small affirmations, it’s the way your cock swells and stiffens when she swings her leg open, the angle, the depth, the pressure making her incoherent and cry out like the fucked mess she is—for weeks now she’d been your foil, the thorn pricking sharp into your side, and here you are, driving your cock deep into her aching cunt, nothing less than her salvation.

“I can’t,” she whispers, face falling into your shoulder and her teeth biting into your neck, leaving marks like you both don’t have to be at the office tomorrow. “I can’t keep - you feel so good, you’re going to make me cum - you’re gonna make me fucking cum.”

She’s slipping, falling apart in your arms, breaking at the seams. The delicate application of mascara around her eyes is ever-so-slightly starting to run, and you feel her leg begin to wobble and buckle under her weight as it sits helplessly on the sharp point of that single heel. You struggle to scoop her up, finding the soft curves of her thighs over your forearms.

“Do it Sana,” you sputter from between gritted teeth, and your hips crash again into Sana’s body, held pitifully between you and the stall’s indifferent wooden frame. “Cum all over this cock - cum for me.”

Sana’s so close to the edge, so wet, so needy, that even craning her neck and seizing your lips is some exaggerated and laborious effort. But it’s the only way she can channel all that raw pleasure, that emotion searing its way from her cunt and shooting up the length of her spine, so she gets there, even if you have to meet her halfway. Her voice hums and cracks inside yours, and you can count the last thoughts of her waning composure in her tongue, in those tears gently wetting your cheeks, at the heart beating wild in her chest, all in those legs wrapping desperately behind you, pulling you deeper into her, yearning to find how much of that lust dripping between her legs you can fill.

“I’m cumming, I’m so close to cumming,” she moans into your mouth, and there’s no question that she is—the quivers her cunt makes around your cock every time you bury yourself inside her heat—the way she clenches onto the emptiness that torments her when you drag your hips away from her again.

A final inhibition, that what if, the final shred of concern that someone could walk into this impromptu love nest and undo her career—entirely obliterate yours—in so little as the flash of a camera—it vanishes, like a candle snuffed out, first in her head, and then in yours. You smash your hips into the backs of her reddening thighs again, thrusting deep between them and you’re left only thinking of Sana, of her husked voice in your ears, of her ass spilling out between your fingers, of the torrid heat of her cunt—how she invites you, pulls you in, how she begs to be ruined.

“Oh my god.” You can hear the wet breath that she draws fast into her chest scrape against her upper teeth. “Oh. God.”

When Sana cums, she holds nothing back. And she cums hard—muscles tense, her chest holds onto one final breath, and she digs her fingernails into the backs of your shoulders without even a shred of consideration for the poor skin beneath them. Those short staccato breaths that filled your mouth become long, gasping wails that sit just aside your ear as Sana holds tight around your body, hips shaking and bucking between you and the wood behind her.

“Fucking hell, Sana.” And your head is cocked, gaze pointing into the ceiling. “You’re so wet and tight - you’re cumming like you’ve never been touched once - I can’t fucking believe it.”

“ Y-you-you-you,” she stutters, and you’re listening to the bolts and screws holding the stall door together start to grumble and complain. They’re not built for this kind of treatment, not meant to be pounded and punished beyond their breakpoints. Sana on the other hand—she falters, threads coming loose and cracking and falling apart—it only makes her more subdued, more fuckable, more perfect.

“I’m—” You toss your hands beneath her, readjusting your grip, and your lips are resting on her ear. “I’m going to cum inside you. I’m going to fucking use you.”

She’s nodding into your shoulder, and it’s got her babbling and whimpering like she needs it even more than you. “ Do it,” she whispers, the first coherent thing out her mouth that wasn’t god, fuck or you in quite some time. “Do it, fill me up, please sir, cum inside my pussy—”

Knees locking and muscles burning, your fingers squeeze into her soft ass. They pull her to you, burying your cock deep into Sana’s cunt. “ Fuck - Sana.”

In that warmth, in the slopped mess of that fucked, used hole, you cum.

Sana coos when she feels that first rope of cum fill and pool inside her. She’s got her mouth gaping at the second and the third, and she keeps pleading like at this point you’ve got any choice in the matter, “Please sir - fuck all that cum into me - I need it - please.”

Your eyes are shut tight, and your orgasm has you counting the stars in your eyelids, all of that tinnitus of blood rushing between your ears. Call it impropriety, unprofessional—you’re not arguing with any of that; it’s beyond logic; you’re just like the girl in your arms: ruined, fucked.

There’s all this mess between your hips, stains at the hem of Sana’s dress, and you’re still thrusting, slowed and deliberate now, and you’re reeling as you unload everything inside Sana. Your lips part, though nothing really comes out, just a long groan, and soon you’re laughing, returning back into reality—which at this point, it’s just the restroom, and it smells so badly of sex, beyond the harsh odor of cleaning agents. It’s bad, it’s that obvious.

One final shared groan—your voices trembling in unison on two wildly different sounds—fills the restroom when your cock slips out from between Sana’s wet, swollen lips.

“ Jesus.” Sana slides from your grip, lands on her feet, and barely finds her balance on her heels, knees bowed and wobbling as she straightens herself out. She wipes a few stray tears from her eyes and pulls her dress back down her thighs to somewhere slightly more modest, always a familiar challenge. “That was something.”

You sink backward into the stall’s firm embrace, clearing your voice a few times. “ Yeah,” you start, and you realize you need more time to pant and huff your way back to anything presentable. “Okay. Five minute s. Walk out of here no sooner than five minutes after me.”

“What?” Sana asks, and she crosses her legs, leaning back and sliding down the stall wall a few inches. “Are you that afraid someone’s gonna find out you just had your dick in me?”

“I mean, sure, it’s one fear.” It’s all the dominos you have lined up after that, how they might fall. “Believe me, the last thing I need is Nayeon and Dahyun getting suspicious and—”

“They can kick rocks,” says Sana, raking her fingers through her hair until it sits on her shoulders more or less how it was before you’d gotten your hands in it, all tossed and ruffled. “Besides they’d just be jealous they’ve never been fucked like that in their short, sorry lives.”

You lean forward, smirking. “Oh? Fucked like what?”

“Don’t flatter yourself.” She says it like it insults her, but the breathy laugh she holds back gives her away. “You’re the one who’s always saying, it’s unbecoming to gloat.”

“Well, it isn’t my job to be becoming now is it?”

“ Hey,” she says, uninterested in the banter, taking a step through all the back and forth, and she leans into you, close enough to where you can see all those small, dangerous details again.

A few of the hints now inches in front of you become pretty recognizable: those few strands of hair stuck to the sweat on her brow, the smudges of mascara around her eyes, the way her knees buckle just a little when she shifts her weight—if anything, the rosy flush in her cheeks could be explained away with whatever she was sipping on minutes ago. But the mess leaking down her thighs? That was going need to some extra attention, and maybe a few tissues.

“This is the ladies’ room.” Her head tilts, and you watch her hair fall on her cheek again. “You should totally, like, get out of here.”

“Yeah. That’s what I was saying.”

“Seriously.” Her eyes light up and her teeth worry the corner of her lip. “I might just start touching you again if you don’t.”

-

You figure all that guilt and anxiety was going to be there waiting for you in the morning. So for now, there’s this strange calm you find in the sound of tires hitting wet pavement and the smell of fresh rain on the wind. Though the evening crowd had started to thin, a few people are still out—couples mostly, holding hands, sharing umbrellas to satisfy some romantic hankering or another; you’re pretty sure it had stopped raining a while ago.

“You called two cars?” Sana asks, finger on her chin, “What’s the fun in that?”

“None, probably.”

“Well that’s…” her voice trails off and her eyes narrow alongside this mild grin, “How are you supposed to walk me to my front door, you know, stand there with your hands behind your back, wait for a kiss, and then hang around missing all these queues that you should leave—until I finally decide to let you up for coffee even though it’s late and it’s a little too soon to be letting you stay the night and we’ve got work in the morning and—

"I’m sure you’ll manage.” You snuff out the thought before it can brew any further in your mind—the power of restraint coming to you now apparently. Timely.

“Well it’s not like you live that far from me,” says Sana, running her thumb over her lips and looking at how that fresh application of lipstick bleeds onto it. To her credit, she’d spent some time touching up after you pulled yourself off her tight, well-fucked body and before you watched her appear on the sidewalk outside the bar. Her lips pull back into a smile, and she clicks her tongue against her teeth. “It’s, like, eco-friendly or something.”

“Uh-huh.”

“It’s good for the Earth. You gotta be pro-Earth. I mean, everyone’s pro-Earth.”

A train arrives in the station, metal brakes screeching on the tracks, and you ball up both hands into the pockets of your jacket. “Since when do you know where I live?”

“Well, to be honest,” she starts like she’s about to set some record straight and wipes a strand of loose hair out of her face, “I don’t. But Dahyun walked home from your place one time. And I doubt you’d ever make her walk far. Let’s not mince words here—you really spoiled her.”

“For starters, I never had to delete homemade porn off her phone.” Your eyes are pointed to the sky while you try to remember if that checks out. And it does. “If I was lenient,"—which you were—"I dunno, maybe she earned it.”

“ Huh.” Her eyes glisten, staring straight into yours. “I had no idea you guys were sleeping together—”

“ Sana,” you say, catching her eyes again. “We weren’t.” It’s not a lie or anything, but the words are choking you on the way up like it were. “We aren’t.” You clear your throat again. “ We haven’t.”

“Man—you really need to relax.” Sana lets herself enjoy this quiet laugh that you barely hear over the sound of passengers arriving and boarding.“Like I dunno, hear me out: maybe we both get in the first car that shows up, and we take it to your place, and you throw me on the bed, maybe over the back of the sofa, I don’t care; wherever you think—”

“I’m going home in one car,” you say, turning a cigarette lighter over in your hand. “And you in the other.”

“We could have at least made out in the back of the cab.”

With this disappointed look on her face, Sana folds her arms and finds a spot against the station’s bricks to lean into, a knee pushed forward and one foot against the wall. Her skirt rises and ruffles just enough for you to get yet another glimpse of the gentle curves of her thighs—not that you’re trying to look.

She lets her cheek fall into her shoulder, eyes pointed at you, and gets on with this judgmental tone. “You smoke?”

“Rarely.” You’ve got your hand cupping the end of the flame as it flickers in the breeze, protecting those embers until they finally catch and glow red. You hide the lighter in your pocket, and your posture straightens out an extra inch or two when you add, “only if I have a good reason.”

“Oh? Then tell me; what’s the occasion?” she asks, and she smiles at you like she knows you’re pretending not to notice how pretty she is. “Are we celebrating? That’s kinda cute—”

“Stressed. Anxious.” You inhale deeply. Let this sharp plume of smoke out. Then you bend your neck side to side a few times. “That kind of thing.”

Sana takes a hint. She places her hands behind her back, leaning and looking into the sky, where rain clouds had rolled and tumbled out to let you peer into this vastly black sky—no stars, no moon, just an unending dark blanket of night. Neither of you say much; it’s pillow talk without all the chatter perhaps, and it’s comforting in a sense, a warm silence that you can wrap yourself up in. When you turn your head toward Sana, she surprises you for the hundredth time, the expression on her face so innocent and soft—it’s hard not to let her fool you.

“This one’s all yours,” you say, and you nod toward the cab pulling up on the curb, tapping ash from your cigarette onto the ground.

Sana’s got her hand on the door and one knee in the backseat of the taxi when her eyes find yours one last time. “You sure? Last chance.”

“I’ll see you tomorrow,” you say, watching Sana shake her head and let out this muted laugh. “Oh and Sana, let’s—how about we try and keep our jobs. Okay?”

She smiles. Even if just a little, you’re smiling too. “You got it sir.”

3 years ago on December 06, 2022 at 7:04 pm

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