Drowning in Air

DAY 2 - ITZY VILLA, AEWOL BEACH RESORT, JEJU ISLAND
minho

The first thing I woke to was warmth.

From another body pressed against mine, skin to skin, breathing the same air in the small space between sleep and waking.

Yeji.

Her leg was hooked over my thigh, ankle locked behind my knee in that possessive way she often had when she was deeply asleep. Her breath was steady against my neck, warm and even, each exhale carrying that faint floral scent, expensive and familiar, mixed with sleep and something uniquely her.

I kept my eyes closed. Let myself exist in that space where nothing had gone wrong yet, where the day hadn't started and yesterday's choices were still theoretical, where guilt was just a word instead of a weight pressing on my chest.

She stirred. A small shift of her hips, her body sliding closer even though there was no more space to close. Her lips found my collarbone, pressed a kiss there that was more instinct than intention, the kind of touch that came from muscle memory built over five years of mornings exactly like this.

"Morning," she murmured, voice sleep-rough and affectionate in a way she only ever was in these unguarded moments, before the day demanded she become Leader Yeji, before the world required armor.

"Morning." My hand slid up her spine automatically, fingers tracing the familiar landscape of her back through the t-shirt she'd stolen from me last night. My t-shirt. The possessiveness went both ways, written in borrowed clothes and claimed space and the particular way our bodies fit together after years of practice.

She kissed her way up my neck slowly, deliberately, the way she did when she wanted something. Her hand slipped between us without ceremony, found me already half-hard from morning and proximity and the simple fact of her, and she made this small pleased sound low in her throat that went straight to my cock.

"Someone's awake," she teased. Her thumb stroked along my length through my boxers, that practiced touch that knew exactly how much pressure I liked, exactly how to make need build in my gut like hunger.

I was fully hard now, blood rushing south, body responding the way it always did to her touch, to her voice, to the weight of her against me. She pulled back just enough to look at me through half-lidded eyes, hair mussed from sleep, lips slightly swollen, expression soft and warm and full of that affection she only showed me in moments like this when no one else was watching.

She moved in one smooth motion, practiced and fluid, straddling me. The sheet pooled around her hips. My t-shirt rode up, exposing the curve of her thighs, the place where we'd join. Morning light filtered through the curtains, soft and golden, catching in her hair like light through hanji screens, making her look like something out of a dream, something too good to be real.

She was beautiful. She was always beautiful like this, soft and unguarded and mine in ways she wasn't for anyone else.

She tugged my boxers down just enough, lined me up with that casual efficiency that came from knowing exactly how our bodies worked together, and sank down onto me with a soft gasp.

Her warmth enveloped me completely. That slick tight heat that came from knowing each other's bodies so well, from five years of mornings exactly like this, from the kind of familiarity that made everything easy. Good and right, exactly the way it should be.

"I love you," she whispered, her hands braced on my chest, hips beginning to move in that rolling figure-eight motion I'd memorized, that rhythm we'd perfected together through trial and error and patient practice.

"I love you too."

"You better."

It should have been teasing, the way she always said it, nose scrunching, half-laugh warming the edges. But her voice sounded wrong. Distant, like she was speaking from the other end of a tunnel, the words reaching me a half-second after her mouth moved. I knew before my brain caught up that this wasn't right.

I opened my eyes fully.

Her face. Wrong in ways I couldn't immediately name, just wrong the way a familiar room looks wrong when you walk into it in the dark and can't figure out what's been moved. Every line of expression gone, features wiped clean until nothing remained but the basic geography. Eyes flat and glassy as a doll's, staring through me at some fixed point in a distance that didn't exist. The idol mask she wore for cameras and crowds, except this time the mask was all there was - the warmth underneath scooped out, leaving only shell.

She kept riding me. Her hips moved with that same practiced rhythm, that same figure-eight I'd memorized over five years, but the warmth was gone, the connection severed, her body performing choreography without her presence animating it. Like someone had taught these movements to a machine that looked like her and forgotten to include the person underneath.

"Keep going," she said, and her voice came out flat, a recording, words arriving without breath behind them.

I tried to stop. My hips kept thrusting up to meet her, muscles moving autonomous, following instinct and muscle memory and five years of learning exactly how to move with her. My body refused to obey, continuing the motion while my mind screamed for it to stop.

"Yeji, wait, I -"

She didn't react. Just kept moving. Empty eyes staring through me.

The bedroom was too bright, the golden morning light burned white somehow, searing and wrong, bleaching color from the walls the way overexposure does to photos until everything hurt to look at. The walls pressed closer, narrowing the space, and the air turned thick like breathing through wet cloth.

I reached for her, some instinct telling me I needed to touch her, needed to confirm she was still there under whatever this was. My hands hit her skin and the wrongness was immediate - cold in a way skin shouldn't be cold when you're pressed against someone, waxy in a way that made me think of mannequins and funeral homes and things that look human from a distance but lose that quality the second you touch them.

"Yeji, please, what's -"

Water touched my knees. Cold and sudden, impossible because there was no pool here, no water, just bedroom floor and tangled sheets and Yeji above me. I looked down and found pool tile under my hands, harsh noon sun reflecting off water that shouldn't exist, the bedroom erased and replaced with poolside without any sense of transition, without movement, without logic. Just one frame it was hardwood and the next it was tile and water, reality editing itself while I was still trying to process the first impossibility.

Humidity pressed against my skin, thick and cloying, the air heavy with chlorine and salt and something underneath that smelled like decay, organic and sweet-rotten in the way things get when water pools in places sunlight can't reach.

The sun was white-hot and merciless, beating down with an intensity that should burn but only made everything feel more unreal, colors distorting, depth warping, like looking at the world through a lens that bent meaning before it reached my eyes.

Water lapped at the tile, each ripple too loud, echoing wrong, the sound bouncing off surfaces in ways that made it seem like the noise was coming from inside my skull rather than outside.

Yuna was beneath me now. Not Yeji. The switch had happened with the pool, one impossibility layered on top of another, and my body hadn't even paused to acknowledge the change. Her nails scratched my back, red lines blooming, the pain sharp and immediate and real in a way nothing else was. Her pussy clenched around my cock, wet and tight and wrong - too cold, flesh that had lost its heat but kept moving anyway, kept responding on autopilot the way bodies do in dreams, on muscle memory alone.

My hips were still moving. I couldn't stop them, couldn't override whatever autopilot had taken over, my body pistoning into her with mechanical precision while I watched from somewhere behind my own eyes. The slick sound of bodies joining without connection, without meaning, without anything resembling the intimacy I'd been inside moments ago.

Yeji stood at the pool's edge, watching. Not moving, not reacting, just standing there in that white sundress from our beach date, the one with tiny flowers that had looked so perfect in golden hour light. Like someone had placed a mannequin there and forgotten to animate it. The dress looked wrong now, too bright, too white, painful to look at in the harsh noon sun.

"You didn't stop with Yuna," she said, and her voice was flat, clinical, each word delivered without judgment or emotion, empty of any trace of the vulnerability that usually crept into her voice when she was hurt.

Anger would have been a mercy. Tears would have been human. This was the space where both used to live, scraped clean.

"Yeji, please, I -" I tried to pull out. My hips wouldn't listen. My cock stayed buried deep in Yuna's cold cunt, my body thrusting, betraying, writing proof across Yeji's silence with every motion. "It's not-I didn't mean -"

"I was always yours." Her face didn't change. Empty of anything that would've let me pretend she cared enough to hate me. "You were never mine."

The words landed somewhere behind my sternum and kept sinking.

"That's not true, I -"

"Was I not enough?" Four words, soft and certain, disappointment so profound it cut deeper than screaming ever could.

The question from Practice Room B. The fear she'd whispered five years ago when I'd found her sobbing at 2:47 AM, mascara running down her cheeks in black rivers, dreams crumbling around her. The wound at the center of everything, the one I'd spent five years pressing my hands against, proving wrong through action because she'd never believe words.

And here I was proving her right. Inside another woman. Muted above the waist and merciless below it, hips writing the answer to her question in a language she didn't need to translate.

Yuna's moans echoed underwater, distorted and distant, sound waves bending wrong through air that had gone thick and liquid. Her skin under my hands was like wax, cold and slightly tacky, not flesh but something that had been taught to approximate flesh without actually being alive.

The water in the pool had gone black.

Blacker than depth. The surface swallowed light whole and gave nothing back, a void wearing the shape of a pool.

The pleasure built despite everything, unwilling and inevitable, traitorous biology overriding ethics and intention and every desperate prayer that this would stop. My cock throbbed inside Yuna's cold cunt, pressure mounting in my balls, orgasm approaching with the certainty of something my body had already agreed to without consulting me.