there are three kinds of nights in your life.
The first kind is the normal nights, which after hitting the gym, eating dinner, taking a shower, and living overall like a functioning member of society you find yourself falling asleep at 11 PM, maybe 12 AM if you are really not that tired.
The second kind is the nights where you decide to laugh at the concept of sleep, channel your inner shut in and play video games for the whole night, or just goof off with your friends on discord until the sun rises
However, sometimes you have those nights where you find yourself in your bathroom at 3 AM, throwing up all of the food you ate in the entire day and overall being miserable?
Unfortunately, tonight was the third kind of night.
Do you have any idea how you got to this situation? Nope, all you could remember is that around 1 AM, you could only feel your stomach hurting like crazy, your anxiety levels going to the 11 forcing you to go to the bathroom to try and calm yourself
However, even after an hour this was to no avail since still you found yourself throwing up while your eyes were full of tears. “Absolutely fantastic, now the one thing that can fuck me up is-” your thoughts were suddenly stopped by a light touch on your shoulder
As you look up you find your girlfriend Kim Jiwon looking at you, she was wearing a white sweatshirt, which was probably stolen from your closet.
Long black hair just like the night sky and eyes that could show sadness was the only thing you could see from your fully teared eyes as your girlfriend kneeled down before you, letting her arms wrap around your body.
“Another anxiety attack?” She asked since those events were not new to your girlfriend, at least once a month she had to stay up all night with you to try and relax you, to the point it was impressive how she still wanted to stay with you
“Do you know what happened that you are feeling like that?” You simply shook your head in response as she just sighed, “Oh well, it’s OK… let’s just go to the bed ok? After you brush your teeth” she added, trying to close her nose to block the scent of the puke.
5 minutes of brushing your teeth and a spare change of pajamas later you walked toward your shared bed with Jiwon as she looked at you with a weak smile, but it was enough to make you feel happy and in the same time: somehow guilty
“I don’t deserve you.” That was the first thing you said while you inched slowly toward Jiwon as she laid her head on your shoulder.
“Ahhhh, so that is what you are anxious about?” She asked while she turned on the TV to a random episode of friends. You could only nod as your girlfriend pulled you into an embrace
“I just…” You hesitated, which in reaction Liz leaned and kissed your forehead. Even after numerous times, she has done that it still surprises you
“Just what?” she asked, he eyes pleading for an answer as you couldn’t handle it anymore
“That I am too anxious for you” her reaction could only be puzzled as she tilted her head sideways, letting you explain
“You just… deserve someone who isn’t depressed all the time or a scar-” You were shutted by your girlfriend’s lips on yours, their sweet taste however was short.
“I. Will. Always. Love. You, ” Liz said, each word was spoken clearly as your cheeks turned red from embarrassment. However, as you tried to turn away, both her palms on your cheeks, forcing you to look at her pleading eyes.
“Eyes On me okay baby? I will always love you, say it” she requests as you have no choice but to sigh and comply
“I will always love you” you recited her words as she smiled cutely and pecked your lips.
“Good, now… let’s go sleep okay, baby?” She asked, however, as her hands went over to your back she could feel you shake.
“…you are still stressed, right? It’s ok, let me help you relax, ” she said as her hands reached to your back under your shirt, her fingers lightly tapping on your back, causing you to instinctively let your head find its rest on her chest.
You slowly start to destress yourself by taking deep breaths, “Good baby…I’m here for you,” she said while pecking your forehead, “you need this sleep…more than me” she added as you finally close your eyes, the first snore is able to be heard from your unconscious self.
And the last words you manage to hear before fully drifting into dreams.
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