When you have gone this far, do you still doubt yo

Genre: fluff, smut, short story

+1500 words

Shuhua x Male Reader

More of Fried’s practice AND prompt thanks to @mintwithchoco and @woollypoison.Thank you both for hosting this round’s prompts!

It’s a cloudy day yet still feels warm because the area you live in is a warmer area. You and Shuhua are studying for a big exam coming up next week.

“How are you feeling?” you asked.

“It’s fine…” Shuhua said with not much energy left in her.

“How is the study going? Exam is close I think, maybe it is time we Lock In ” you say.

“Yea, sure.” Again, Shuhua replied with almost no emotion.

You feel a little off by how Shuhua is responding but you pay less attention.

“Oh my, we have a lot more to study eh… I mean look at that table of a mess… haha…” You tried to get some conversation going.

Shuhua unfortunately keeps quiet as she continues to scribble some drawings onto the canvas.

You stand up from where you sit and walk towards the messy desk to try to tidy up the many messes in it.

You stand in front of your desk, tidying up some books, putting aside some notes, and you don’t realize it, but someone is creeping behind you.

Shuhua suddenly hugged you from behind, you feel the warmth overwhelm you since she is still wearing your hoodie.

“Shuhua? What’s up?” You ask.

Shuhua pointed at the open book to the underlined words in it.

Are we friends? Or are we more?

“Of course we are friends, Shuhua… I won’t trade you for anything in this world.” You answer.

Shuhua then releases you from her hug, slowly lowers her hand and leaves the room.

You don’t understand what is going on, but you do feel the air is a little colder than usual.

Something is not right, you ponder the words you said before, then you look back at the pointed book.

Or are we more?

“Oh…fuck.” You realize at that moment, you fuck up.

You immediately rush outside to find Shuhua sitting on the chair near the balcony, crying.

You run towards Shuhua, try to hug her but she pushes you away.

“I am sorry, babe, I didn’t mean it like that.”

You can feel the panic in your heart, you did something really bad, not being present with her. Just that one single moment, you ALMOST lose possibly the love of your life.

You turn her around to face you, she looks at you with her puffy face and teary eyes before looking away.

“Babe, I am not leaving you until we get this out of our system, alright.”

Shuhua is still sad, and she barely looks at you, but you keep persisting.

You lift her up and take her to sit on your lap in front of the PC in the room.

You gave her a hot cocoa drink that was prepared while you guys were studying.

Still looking down on her drink, you search up your old photos in the gallery folder on the PC.

“Babe, look” pointing to the PC screen.

You dig up the photos when you guys were in Highschool, the smiling on both of your faces after completing a brutal exam week.

“Remember how we almost didn’t make it to the last day of the exam because of crazy weather and insane amounts of study materials?” You say, but she only looks at the picture briefly.

“Or this” showing again another old picture, this time it is from your first year in Uni.

“Remember how drunk you got that day and I had to literally carry you all the way to the house?” Back then you and Shuhua did not rent this bedroom, so you must take her back to her house.

“When I get in your house, I get immediately berated by your parents, I think I was almost a goner that day HAHA, your dad really had me by the throat, ya know.”

Giggle, that is the first thing Shuhua does that resembles any response towards any attempt you make to get to her.

“And this, it feels just like yesterday.” This time you bring up the photo of you and Shuhua first arriving and renting this room.

You can see now Shuhua finally sees the screen, “this is also the time you lend me that hoodie of yours,” she says while looking at the hoodie she wore before and throws it to the side of the bed.

“Nah, I actually haven’t given it to you, you just took it.” Your remark.

“Hmph.” Shuhua gives you that smug look, disapproving of your statement.

“Babe, my point is, of course we are friends, but more than that, after all we go through together, I know it is something more than just friends.”

Shuhua looks up at you.

“The thing is babe…” With swift movement you kiss her.

You may have surprised her by your actions, yet Shuhua doesn’t push you away this time.

It takes some time before she kisses you back, letting you know she forgives you this once.

You let go of the kiss to finish your sentence, “I love you, babe. I think I have always loved you, I am not going to let the memories we made together go to waste, looking forward to being present when it comes down to you, anytime, anywhere.”

You carry her again out of the seats of the PC to the bed.